Sunday, April 06, 2008
random post.
i've finished the 81-episode Jumong. and i'm really glad that i'm beginning to understand more and more korean. i'm going to purchase "The Vineyard Man". it's a novel of which the drama series of the same name was based. i know the korean text is way beyond the level i have acquired and daryl's been a damper, but i'm still going to try and maybe just maybe, i'll get through it over summer.
i'm really not in the mood for exams now. finals are in a little over a week and i really should be gettin down to all the material. it's a lot better than last term since i've been consistently doing my homework and reading some notes and texts so it won't be so much of a last-ditch effort like the last round. unfortunately, ever since i started watching Coffee Prince, The Vineyard Man, Jumong and now Be Strong, Geum Soon! i'm really afraid that i'll never get started. it's just such a bore to stare at the work and i'm so reluctant. but if i'm going to save that GPA of mine and make sure than last term's GPA will be the lowest of my college years then it's high time i get my arse off the couch.
i will be back on Mayday. singapore time. that means i'm leaving Ann Arbor in 3 weeks. i'm not feeling sad, but i'm no where as excited as i was last year. last year at least, i was really excited during the finals since i couldn't wait to get over and done with exams and head home. this time, i wish i can stay on longer.
when i return next semester, it'll be the last 2 semesters before my batchmates graduate. and then i'll have another 1 or 2 semesters that i'll have to do alone. with brian and the other guys who are staying on for masters too of course. it's such a quaint and pretty town. something about the windows down in a breeze, the the snow bunks by the roadside after a storm, and did i mention the snow scrapers that i use to get the ice and snow off the cars? i was so nearly late for my final last term coz the car was totally snowed in.
thing is, i have a very real life here. a life where i do my grocery shopping, pay my rent, check the bus schedules to get to school, and prepare my own meals. or even do random things like having a bowl fo seafood chowder at the fish market. it's al these little things that help you remember a place and a time when it's long gone.
looking back on all those years before that, all the studying definitely equates a blank.
home is where the heart is. where's mine? i'll need to think.
home is where the people [who matter] are. singapore was definitely a home because of all the family and friends who are there. would singapore still be home without all those people? i think no. there were all the little beautiful places that existed before. the old smelly wet markets, the dirty food centres, the ice cream man and his moving van. that sort of thing. but they've been removed to make way for the new [and better] society. and whilest the new world is being built, i'm away from it, so i won't be establishing those bonds that hold you down. i can't say it's home.
this summer i should get started thinking about my plans after graduation. realistically, i have to stop putting off those plans. i might have to remain here and secure a job. if i pursue my major in accounting, i'll will be quite useless if i return home with different systems and all. and daryl will pursue his phD here..
enough rambling..
