Wednesday, November 28, 2007
grief. i'm a mess.
i ended the Thanksgiving break with a flu, a bad throat and bad phlegm. then i went and took an exam which i wasn't well-prepared for on the day i was sick (the poor prep isn't due to the flu). and naturally i screwed the exam. i daren't even think of the grade i'm going to get or the GPA for this term.
which brings me to the second point. my GPA is going to be the lowest in theo history of my life. which isn't very long, considering the few terms i've had here. but if we count those days in hwachong, i doubt those grades even had a score on the GPA scale (cue dry laughter).
i have no fracking idea what i'm doing with my studies, grades and whatnot this term (theoretically, the whatnot does not exist, unless you count being a bum). i'm taking 14.5 credits which is way below the 17 i took for the past two terms. agreeably, i felt a little stretched (meaning i felt i didn't enjoy myself enough). well, in this case, it's all play and no work makes jack a dull boy.
i gave up the one subject i enjoyed, Korean, thinking it took up to much time and didn't add to my degree. well, looking back, it might have been the one thing that will save my GPA from falling into the gutters. Korean, was the one class that i took pride in exceling in. and the excess kinda spilled over into all my subjects. "hey! i have an A in this, how about getting a whole string of them?" this term, i not only didn't get the A, i lost the whole string too. and that's the worst possible time to be pulling such a stunt. especially now that my GPA's been reset to zero. i'm starting my new university life with crap GPA. (cue applause)
then i realise to my utter horror (makes me wonder what planet i'm living on), that i have 2 weeks to save my ass. save, in this instance, means scraping B+ and A- on the rest of my subjects and not walk away with Cs and low Bs.
i have to read all the texts which i happily refrained from touching the whole term and i don't se how i'm supposed to internalise them now. gonna have to try digging around for notes and such to make up for the texts.
and i have a paper due next wednesday. paper? big deal. it's just a paper. it's also a paper which i haven't written in ages, so i'm really rusty. a paper that determines whether i might get a low A on anthropology. a paper on which i have to base 2 ethnographies that have a volume of info scattered all over the place.
BIT has been giving me some trouble. the homeworks were doable. not my favourite but they were fine once i read the manuals to figure out how to work Excel and stuff. thing is, i'm real scared about the final. if they're gonna throw me in front of a comp and make me do weird shit, i'm screwed. i mean, i'm the one who prolly needs The Idiot's Guide to Computers. and then there's the whole saga with the final. my fault really. there's a time conflict with my econ and bit final. so i get my bit rescheduled. end of story.
except, we all found these tickets to vegas for the winter break, and since we're running pretty low on time now, i went and booked them. problem is, the alternative date for the bit final still isn't out. and my flight's set early morning for the date after the orginal bit date. and the prof says it won't be earlier, prolly the same day but later. i'm so so scared. i really don't need this right now. i hope everything miraculously works out.
i want to go to cali!!! if only for 12 days. but still. it's that one chance of a break here. with such a short term break.
i want to regain my motivation and work hard again. serious.
last problem. i'm due to register for class in another 5 days or so. it's a realy bad appointment. they're set based on the credits you have completed. seniors have first pcik, then juniors, sophs etc.. and then within the ranks you're ranked based on the number of creds. more creds, earlier appointment. techinically i have 76.5 creds. but coz of the B-sch policy, i'm capped at 45 if i'm not doing a double degree or an additional minor. so now the classes i want for next term are closing. like wtf? and there are only like a 4 classes that i even want to take. i don't want to take another term of crap psych or something. eeek!
