Friday, August 24, 2007
humans are such weird people. or perhaps i'm just one of the weird ones.
it's kinda like you're eating some food and you want something else on the buffet table. you don't really enjoy whatever that you're eating and you trade it for another. only to repeat the same thing over and over. it's probably a really lousy analogy. but i definitely don't count my blessings.
early in april i was wishing so depserately to come back home. but when i was finally done with my finals, i really dreaded the packing so much that i almost wished i wasn't coming back. then when i came back, i failed to carry out several of the things i had planned to do. then i got bored sitting around with nothing much to do so i started wishing i could head back. and now that summer's over, i'm kicking myself for not making the most of it. how fickle can one get?
i'm sure the 2 terms ahead will bring a fresh series of challenges and that should be kinda fun. but at the same time, it's not intriguing the way it used to be. i mean, i'll be settling into the same routine i adopted last year. there isn't so much mystique, neither is there the enthusiasm. and it's making it ever so much harder to leave. someone told me that it isn't the leaving that's hard, it's the having left and come back that makes it harder.
i'm not done packing. far from it. but that's coz i don't really want to pack. i've gotten so used to my large room, my comfy bolster and everything just where i want it to be.
see, that's the point. it's having to step out of your comfort zone. now that's not fun.
