Sunday, June 10, 2007
i was supposed to finish that philosophy quiz and post the results here. well that was not to be. me being rather dense closed the window. and redoing the survey gave a completely different result. very different from what i had achieved originally.
for a start. i'm need to keep my paranoia in check. i'm trying real hard now. and it's not easy. but i'm determined to overcome that compulsive habit of worrying constantly about the health of my loved ones and myself. recently it has reached really insane levels. imagining that i have avian flu, drug resistant TB and DVT. this HAS got to stop. it's no longer funny and i'll be in IMH before i know it.
second point, followup from before, i need to diversify my interests. i have tried. newspapers are still beyond me, but i've been reading national geographic and all. i figure if one keeps reading, you can't get distracted so easily.
lynn emailed me that i can't be an OGL. coz i'll be back in singapore too late. this is really costing too much. but i'm in it, so it's my job to deliver. and i'll keep at it. i realised i've been focusing too much on the future.. and that's really bad coz who knows what the future holds? but at the same time, when the current is less than desirable, maybe one has to keep looking forward.
it will all work out. somehow.
i miss my dearie. i really pray and hope he gets along just fine. can't help it that my paranoia goes into overdrive. but i really hope he stays healthy and happy.
34 days. that's still really long. 22 sounds better. but those are work days.
