Wednesday, May 23, 2007
another summer day
has come and gone away
in Paris and Rome
but I wanna go home
may be surrounded by
a million people I
still feel all alone
I wanna go home
oh I miss you, you know
- michael buble, home -
i'm going to try and type this out coz apparently, writing is supposed to make one feel better.
i miss my darling HORRIBLY. and even that is an understatement.
i realise that i've been spending almost all my time with my darling that i'm totally not used to it now that he's gone home. right from the time we got together till now. and even if we didn't see each other, knowing that he was easily accessible made all the difference.
i don't really have hobbies. i just do stuff when i have time. but seeing that i've devoted all my time to him mostly, suddenly i'm so free now. and work comes sporadically so it leaves me much time to mope over my loss.
i realise now how i badly badly need to regain a life. my sort of character enjoys caring and watching out for someone. of late, my life has been centred around my darling. and suddenly i'm totally off-balance. i need to get involved in activities. i had this analogy about lichens and a tree. well pretty much i'm the lichen. it's time to look for something to occupy my time. before i lose my mind.
if only home wasn't so sickeningly quiet. home is where the heart, the family and the beloved are.
i'm waiting for a home.
52 days to my darling.
枯藤老树昏鸦，
小桥流水人家，
古道西风瘦马。
夕阳西下，
断肠人在天涯。
- 《秋思》 李贺 -
the weekend passed by way too fast. i spent last week pining away for the weekend. waking up early on both days and sleeping late on both nights to make it last longer. sure didn't feel that way.
i did manage to pack my weekend full with activities though.
dear and i tried to celebrate 5th month with a nice dinner on thursday but couldn't coz the restaurant which i frequented last year mysteriously disappeared. my dad took all of us for a dinner at 老北京烤鸭 which was really good albeit kinda oily. went for a drive and a walk along the bund. dear and i took off after to head to 新天地 for a drink which turned out to be a bittersweet experience.
woke up early the next morning for breakfast at coffee bean before shopping around at the flea market near 静安寺. i got myself an office jacket, some pyjamas, some laundry necessities for next year, a black leather belt and a Japanese-esque coin purse for wenxin.
went with my mom and dear to get tickets for the tuesday performance of 浦江情杂技表演。 dang! the cost of living is really escalating in shanghai with the pay increasing too but certainly not as fast. shoes here are so expensive. the chinese brands are pricing themselves on par with brands like Aldo. but sadly do not match in terms of quality, design and comfort. who's gonna pay 600RMB for a pair of shoes when you can get an Aldo pair? i've got to get shoes though. coz i have just one pair suitable for office use (due to certain regulations about ankle straps). but i have no intention of paying so much for poorly-designed and ill-fitting shoes.
went to century park with dear to cycle on those twin carts. before scooting to have dinner and drinks with my parents.
sunday morning and early afternoon was spent at 朱家角. hence, the poem. the place is sadly commercialised. analysis of all those case studies in geography lessons are becoming real-life firsthand experiences. loss of unique minority culture to globalisation. encroachment of cities on neighbouring towns. my mom, dear and i went to Big Echo after to sing karaoke. dad joined us for dinner after that. so passed my weekend.
dear's going back on wednesday. and i've got to work all day on weekdays. 6 long long weeks. scratch that. 54 days. which is 7 weeks and 6 days. good fun.
