Tuesday, April 03, 2007
i was just scanning some old blog entries approximately a week ago. and it hit me that i produced the same number of entries the whole time i've been in the US during some 3-4 months last year. only a miserly 50 entries.
i've just ended a hellish 10 days. can't even begin to describe them. they've been a hectic blur. rushing from one thing to the next. dance practices, exams, papers, presentations, group reports and other miscellaneous homework. i seriously didn't think i could make it through the past 10 days. but yep! i've emerged unscathed. or so i hope. i'm freak tired. and i thought i'd get a breather. but i just realised that if i don't start tackling next week's work now, i'll be faced with the same problem next week. except it'll be way worse. since finals are coming up in just 2 weeks.
i have 20 days to going home. i'm real excited. for very many queer reasons. like being able to eat steamed fish at every meal, or getting to wrap my legs around my bolster, or feeling warm.(though now it's getting a lot warmer here) not to mention being with my family again.
but today i realised, what if i go back and nothing feels quite the same and i don't belong? that's a really scary thought. halfway round the globe to realise that home's back where i left it. and to go back and realise maybe home ain't anywhere?
SEA night's over. i'm kinda sad about that. though the dance practices really ate up a lot of time in my busy week, but it was so much fun. and i was really into letting others see the colourful mix of cultures. sadly, it was mostly asians who showed up at the performance. nonetheless, it brought a real sense of bonding, performing that mini NDP.
enough said. i should be getting back to work.
