Saturday, December 09, 2006
haha. believe it. i cut my hair today. cut it. like i cut it myself. my bangs anyway. and i've got china doll fringe now. well it's about the easiest that i can manage. whatever layered, wispy is totally out of my skill range.
ain't i narcissistic?
i bet everything will be really icky tomorrow.
8 days till the end of exams. just 2 more days to the start. and 2 days for me to go from zero knowledge to maximum. someone save me.
2 things that made me happy yesterday:
1. brian daryl qianyi and me signed the leasing agreement for our house next year!! yay. so that means i get to come back to a nice comfy flat for my sophomore year. it's on north campus, the rent's cheap, a tad inconvenient. but it's so pretty! and homey. and it has a kitchen! and we get parking space. and i've got my little room =)
i'm so glad housing's settled. and i'm glad us housemates get along well.
2. brian daryl and i played some joint combo thing at the arcade. so it was me and brian on the guitar freaks and daryl on the drums. so cool!
for a moment there i actually felt like i could play some kind of instrument. but of course not, not when you're only hitting buttons instead of plucking strings.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
it's almost 3am. i'm going to sleep soon. and i'm so glad. coz it's the earliest i'm sleeping since more than a week ago.
i was at the rescomp site just now, doing some math questions. i won't call them easy, but at least they didn't post such a challenge as opposed to some of the insanely long ones which i did previously.
chatted a little with jean just now. and when i put down the phone, i felt seriously tired. the sort of tiredness where you just want to curl up and rest your head on your knees and tell yourself that you're just living a big nightmare.
the finals are stretching out endlessly before me. so that's 2 weeks of no sleep. and then it'll be vacation so that's certainly no sleep(why would you when you've been deprived of play?) then it'll be new york and then sleep is even more impossible.
we're trying to resolve housing issues now. i wish it'd get settled nice and quick. though i have m own doubts and reservations. i guess the kinks will be ironed out with time.
i suddenly want to go home. no i'm not homesick. but i just want to go back and leave all the work and frustrations here. what a loser right?
oh but i'll overcome all of them. every single one. get a hold on yourself.
i think i'm going to mess up my final English paper big time. i picked a thesis which i thought would hold true throughout the novel, even before finishing the reading. and now i'm dying just to tweak the text in my favour. how did it get so hard? all my efforts spent on the preceding papers will be entirely trashed. can i pelase retain my A- grade in English? i'd be
sorely disappointed inconsolable if i don't get at least an A-.
there's an insane amount of work to be finished. 2 more weeks! 2 weeks to end-of-term, 2 weeks to freedom, 2 weeks to a new start. 2 weeks to DC, Boston and New York. 2 weeks to holiday!
i've been floating a little for the past few days. kind of happy. but good cheer is a highly flighty and unpredictable thing. worse when you're no longer in control of it.
back to my icky paper.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
finals are fast approaching. it seems highly inappropriate that i am blogging at The Dude now, when i really should be making more progress with my annotated bibliography. not to mention, i'll probably be bogged down by similar work for the rest of the upcoming week. i need to churn out 2 papers. (i feel like a machine spitting out quantities of words) the consequences of not doing so? i daren't ponder.
the library in the north is filled with students. of varying degreees of exhaustion. a whole bunch of singaporeans are here. mostly engineers trying to figure out their engineering projects. it's really funny, or it would be if we weren't so stressed out with work. it's a sunny sunday afternoon and yet we're all stuck indoors. and there's a queue at the cafeteria downstairs, all queuing for a caffeine boost. i generally avoiding ingesting coffee, but no caffeine today equates no work done.
not when i slept at 5am, only to wake at 7.30am to rush to church to teach catechism. today's class was a lot less smooth sailing. partly coz the material handled kinda needed more background information, and it's really a lot harder than expected, answering inquisitive children's questions.
in another hour, it'll be dark. the sun's setting at 5-5.30pm. on saturday afternoons when we get out of bed, we have approximately 2-3 hours of sunlight before the sun disappears. how amazing is that?
and it's beginning to snow more frequently now. none of those that sticks around long enough though. so we're no longer excited. i'm eagerly awaiting our first heavy snowfall. now, we've got this word for the feather-light flakes that look like little cottony specks. FLURRIES. experts on weather huh?
eat this. i fell asleep right in front of the computer a while back. without resting my head on the table too. that was till anni prodded my chair and woke me from what might have been deep slumber. now i'me considerably awake(though less than i would have expected from the coffee). but i've got a headache coming on.
i'm elated. i found a source on one of the online information databases that totally supports my thesis paper. that means that i have a much more valid thesis than i expected. and hopefully, my paper-churning may be a bit more successful than i had dared hope for initially.
i've got another theory for my behaviour. i figure that i have 2 brains. and most often, only one is needed. the other proabably controls my emotional state and doesn't play a very major role. or at least, it's been tamed not to, basically disregarded. but every now and then, it will heat up or issue some signals which cannot be ignored and that sort of short circuiting puts the whole system on high alert or sets up some kind of defence mechanism. aren't humans such fun creatures?
sure beats the Cylon robot things in Battlestar Galactica that Edwin recommended me to watch. (though the show isn't half-bad, albeit too sci-fi for me)
i want to start registering for my classes! i really should backpack for the psych class just in case i decide to major in it, then i'll definitely need the basic psych classes as prerequisites. unfortunately, they are recommended to be taken in the freshman and sophomore years. i'm already of sophomore standing and i will cease to be so once winter term is over. believe it! i'll be a junior! next Fall anyhow. a junior who hasn't declared her major..=(
Happiness is knowing what makes you happy.
i will return to sourcing for stuff to support my thesis. ciao people! soak up some sun for me.
