Tuesday, October 31, 2006
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
--marianne williamson, A Return on Love: Reflections on the Pirnciples of A Course in Miracles--
i was intending to post Halloween photos. but for whatever reason i wasn't able to, so there's yet a longer wait.
for my English assignment i was told to look up the origins of a quote and the above passage was one of the findings.
i think it's pretty amazing. the effect each individual has on their surroundings(animate and inanimate). positive and negative. and yeah, we do have great powers, in my opinion, powers to love, to care, to reach out to others and to destroy too. how very much we can do. just imagine if we inflicted hurt instead of something positive, we'd still be doing it to the same extent.
halloween was last saturday! my first ever halloween! i'll post pictures another time. it was 'awesome' *imitates daniel's voice*. but tyeah, it was the case. we had fun dressing up. i went as some ninja geisha thing and took loads of pictures. and i spent a good 2 hrs scaring people in the haunted house. of course, that bit becomes a lot less appealing when you've done it for so long. and gettign whacked by wenxin wih her broomstick was no fun either. that was somewhat well-meaning though.
coz before that some freak guy started shaking me saying,"haha, i got ya first. you didn't scare me. i got ya i got ya!'" scared the living daylights out of me.
and the year 3 seniors came dressed as mahjong tiles! and joseph did a great job coming as a pimp. shall post pics the next time.
i was just thinking. that maybe i seriously talk too much. it doesn't matter that i don't mention names. i observe the people around me, and they become lessons from which i may learn or maybe fodder for humour. but perhaps that shoudln't be the way and i've been wrong all this while.
maybe i should keep the silence. it's hard. but then if i really do succeed, isn't it akin to suppressing my own character? and i wouldn't be myself. it's hard to strike a balance.
i'll try.
mom and chaps reached today. had dinner and stucchi's ice cream with them. i'm glad. i hope and think that they're satisfied with me adapting to the environment and developing as a person. seriously, my family matters most to me. and it's imperative that i don't disappoint them. my dad, mom and sis's affirmation is something i strive for. because i know that they mean it and it's worth making them happy.
it mayn't be the right goal to work for, but it gives me quite a bit of motivation.
sometimes you think something has blown over. and it hasn't. sometimes you think something will never blow over and maybe it has. oh but hasn't life always been about ambiguity?
i still stand firm to the lightbulb concept that i suggested to yihan. i think it's a brilliant idea if it only takes out the zest, the spice and the anticipation. but hell, at least you know when it's right.
