Wednesday, October 25, 2006
To quote Lucy Maud Montgomery, "I am going to begin a new kind of diary. I have kept one of a kind for years--ever since I was a tot of nine. But I burned it today. It was so silly I was ashamed of it...But I'm going to start out all over new and write only when I have something worth writing about. Life is beginning to get interesting for me...And in this journal, I am never going to tell what kind of day it is--unless the weather has something to do worthwhile."
she said that before she even turned 15. i'm several years too late. and even then i doubt i'll be able to stick to it. but all the same, i'm going to try and blog about more meangingful stuff.
if i survive the next 2 weeks, finishing up all my work and getting good grades on my midterms, i'll be really happy with myself. there's a tonne of things to do. papers to submit, midterms to study for and most importantly, math concepts to grasp.
i've managed to tweak my sleep cycle back by a number of hours. not bedtime's at 1.30am instead. but then i just discovered that my korean quiz is this morning instead of tomorrow so that's another night burnt studying korean. and math just has to wait. this is plain screwed.
4 days to Chaps and mom coming!
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
i just had to blog again. it's been a long time since i blogged about something literary. cher: do you still remember when we wrote our own poetry and frequently blogged about the most delectable books we read?
well, i've since lost the reading habit, and i may end up reading selected manga. but today, i surfed an found such amazing things.
primarily, since i'm reading Anne of Green Gables again, this time for the awful thing known as an English paper. i started searching for stuff related to Anne. stumbled on this tv series called Road to Avonlea. aired from 1989 to 1996. apparently it was a great it in its time. and it's not about Anne but rather the setting's fitting. trying to hunt the series down but it's horribly expensive.
and i found the books, Mr Darcy Takes a Wife and Darcy & Elizabeth. both are by Linda Berdoll. am gonna buy them once terence receives his discount coupon in the mail. -) so yay. i have books to read now! but of course Austen purists will slam the book. personally i think the little bits i read are pretty cool.
back to reading Anne again. and trust me it's a lot less tasteful when the essay's looming in the distance.
i'm sitting at the CAEN computers in the Ugli. (i realise such a simple sentence proves unreadable to most.) CAEN are some computers which the engineers use and the Ugli is just short for the undergraduate library.
so anyway, by some stroke of genius, i miraculously managed to finish my Korean homework. then i blog-surfed. visited blogs i havem't looked at in ages. like my juniors' blogs for instance.
my, was i lost. somehow, i always assumed that they'd remain the cute 14-year-olds that i was so accustomed to teaching and caring for. and now, they're lik old. i mean, i know i'm older but i didn't think the'd reach the blooming age of 17, see? and yeah, they have. and chuan, is beginning to sound gu-niang-ish, though i think she'd just pluck my head off.
but it's always been the case. most people associate NP cadets with overbearing, clumsy 'nan ren po'. well, they're pretty wrong. from what i see, we've only been 'nan ren po'-ish during the NP days. and leaving it, we were so sick and tired of the sweat and grime that we did some 180 degree turn.
but i suppose that's an unfair generalisation. coz there are still some who became even more gung-ho. but that's a topic for another day.
i edited my links. i realise that many of them have become curiously outdated. and i added a few. i need to change my blog template. badly. i need to learn how to change my blog template. badly. TOUFU! help!
i'm drowning in my homework. i can't say i'm drowning in my pespiration for a number of reasons, partly coz it's way too cold and dry to have such things happen and partly coz i'm not pushing myself hard enough.
though now i'm beginning to see the benefits of sleep. i'm slowly tweaking my cycle backwards and finally sleeping at michigan time. for a bit i was almost in Singapore time.
my mom called me on saturdday night. and i called my dad. i love it how i can tell them everything. and i like to too! of course, there will be things that i'll keep to myself. but i'm a lot more open with them than most kids would. and i love the mass emails that we send to each other. better still, if i can add but a little bit of cheer to their everyday lives.
i'm torn. should i go to the Big Apple for my winter break? or should i head to Shanghai and spend it with my dad?
i mean, it's X'mas, what better way than to spend it in a city that's bustling and full of life. with a whole group of friends. lots of good cheer and atmosphere?
and also, it's X'mas.. isn't it the time to spend it with family?
i just finished watching this really ridiculous video on youtube with terence. something about South Park with World of Warcraft. it's hilarious really. the world of computer mania is positively screwed. how much sleep lost. and you get like really bad health too.
time to buzz off. i really should get some math done. and at least read that book of mine due for tomorrow's class.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
the cynic speaks.
ask me not to believe. for believe i won't. and trust, i won't either.
we're always so lost in lies aren't we?
i want to curl into a ball and sleep. i want to hug my baby again. i want to be home eating everything that ferly can cook up. i want to be in shanghai watching EPL with my dad. i want to be in my sister's room bouncing on her bed and tickling her. i want to be in st nix eating my orange bowl noodles. i want to be chatting with my close friends back home. i wanna be on my mom's bed watching korean drama and getting nagged at by her.
the things we wish for eh?
i really want a dog. i haven't been this whacked up about baby in a long long time. it's almost a year now. i don't ever want to forget. he's my little darling. oh but, he's somewhere up there in heaven playing with all the other dogs i guess.
fall's here. and fall's almost gone. keep warm. it's cold. without and within.
