Saturday, September 09, 2006
it's really hilarious. the senior-junior mixer thing ended a few hours back. and i'm sitting in my room with a bad throat, a flu and a lack of sleep.
it's hilarious and yet no one's laughing. we played a game of truth or dare. and the thing is, everyone was kind enough to state the truth, bu that meant a lot of pain, uncertainty, caution and just a tinge of happiness.
i need a breather. for the first time in 2 weeks, i want to be home. home where people look at me for who i really am, know me well enough, and would stop assuming me to be things i am not.
i thought i was over the teenage angst and i believe i am. but i don't understand how people just jump to conclusions(i do too) and arrive at such misconceptions based on such superficial observations.
i'm tired. and jaded and cynical as i ever was. thankfully, i've learnt sufficient lessons to cast many safety nets.
i trotted halfway round the globe to find an identity, to create a new one. and i'm feeling sorta lost.
sometimes i wonder. if it's already gone so wrong and so different from the ideal, it just doesn't make sense to continue any more does it?
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
i can't ever get around to blogging properly. let's see. i finally got my econs class. and i've attending my first math lab which sent me to slumberland. and i have gone for my korean class too and it's NOTHING easy.
i'm supposed to get some reading done for tomorrow's sociology class. but it's so dry and that sort of selectively enticing material that only yihan will read. my korena homework is a disaster. we're supposed to translatea phrase and seriously i can barey pronounce it, forget about making sense out of it. and introducing myself in korean.. i'm despairing.
i bought my textbooks today. at least some of them anyhow. i bought some secondhand coz it's so expensive. and i met 2 strangers to buy my books from them. haha.
and i got myself a pair of shoes. :) i'm really shoping a lot less for now. coz i look at the price and i feel really bad.
even for things like textbooks. i'd rather save my parents money.
gotta scoot. i'm tired
and i have to be up super early. i need a coffee. maybe i shuld try the americano that brian likes.
