Saturday, June 03, 2006
i'm 19 now.
if 18 is a flower, then 19 must be a flower in full bloom! and the bloom lasts of course. it's the last year being a teen. make magic happen.
i spent the first day of being 19 being independent. i hope it paves the way for more.
it was the oddest birthday ever. usually i have family or friends celebrating it with and for me. but seeing that i'm here in SH and friends were unaware of and busy. so i spent it alone.
woke up earlier than usual and was feeling rather down about it. decided to pack my barang-barang and head home. was sorely tempted to pig out and stay home with the tv the whole day but decided that im made of tougher stuff.
believe it i went to JinJiang Amusement Park alone. sat the rides and played some dumb games, trying to win myself a softtoy pig. but then i decided the money wasn't worth it so i bought myself one instead. haha. didnt have lunch, just went about on the train, finding my way there(not by cab!)
i've been hanging out so much with my classmates that i've almost forgotten that i used to head about alone too. so it gave e many chances to observe and find things to laugh about and add to my store of funny stories. of course, amusement parks are places you usually go with friends. but i've always liked them anyway so it was still exhilarating to sit the rides and scream and laugh.
came back and bought so much stuff from BK and the supermart coz i was smply ravenous. since it was a saturday, the supermart was having all these samples so i ended up eating stuff. came back to watch about 6 or 7 hours of tv.
it's not my ideal birthday. but nonetheless it wasn't as bad as i expected. and i'm glad i made myself go. but today's gonna be fun. dong-eun, shin-ho and i are going to sing karaoke later. so till tomorrow then.
Friday, June 02, 2006
this is weird. it's my birthday and i have nothing planned. it's sad almost painful. but i guess one should get used to it coz with time and age, it just becomes another day in the calendar.
usually someone rigs something for me. but i guess there isn't so much of a closeness here. everyone's independent and living their own lives. and i presume so must i.
i haven't the slightest idea on wat i'll be doing today. but i guess i'll just take off and do my own thing. a day to myself alone. too bad i can't get a manicure coz my nails really suck.
anyway, just before i go. i'll do this thing i saw on cher's blog.
Ten things you'd like to say to anyone in particular:
1. my favourite and only! know that i always look up to you and i love the closeness that we've been sharing for the past few years. love you Da Ber and looking forward to seeing you soon.
2. we hardly talk now. pretty much we're all caught up with different lives of ours. but litebulbs stll rock anyway.
3. i wish you well. coz you're such a sweet sweet girl and you deserve everything good that's happening. we don't meet up that often but we've still got loads to talk about. here's to many more years..
4. you've always been very self-sacrificial. i hope everything really smoothens out for you now. i really hope to see you in SH. it's been 5 years as toufus now. cheerio.
5. i'm sorry we were such brats last year. it's been great with the emails of late. i'm lucky to find such a true friend and i really hope it lasts.
6. for giving me life. i love you both loads and pray everyday that you both are kept safe and well, happy and healthy and with loads of spark. i'm sorry that i can be quite a handful.
7. i've always regretted not meeting when i was 16. i guess it's too late now and i'm sorry coz we culd have been at least friends. but if ever there's another chance, i'd like to have a chat again.
8. it's almost impossible. but then you're just the sort who just fits. i could very well be insane but i hope you're well and you'll be a little brighter and happier about life. it has much to hold.
9. this is weird. you're inanimate but you're my favourite bear! here's to 10 ears of being my favourite bear and i'll prolly see you tonight!
10. i'm sorry you've passed and i doubt you even understand English. i hope you're happier and having more fun in Heaven with loads of nice juicy bones. :)
okay. time to go.
the last 10 minutes of being 18.
but why do i even care anyway? from the looks of things, it could just be my suckiest birthday. i don't care about the nice dinners or what have you. i think the best way is just hanging out with friends. like the past 2 years, having my NJ mates celebrate it with me.
but here. i can just cry with frustration. i'm bored to tears. there's just nothing to do! i mean. if you're new to the city, it's fun. but when you just want to catch a movie, and there's nothing to watch coz of the pathetic selection. and the overpriced tickets.
i'm just so mad. i think i may just spend my day tomorrow reading the highway code book for the basic theory in driving exam.
i think the best way would be if park spends it with me.
oh but keep wishing you dumb airbrained ass! coz it'll happen in like a million years!
oh if i could almost just sleep till monday. the weekend is gonna be so unbearable.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
seems like the only time i spend with myself is when i'm asleep. or watching such copious amounts of tv.
just today me and bi tao went out again. it was raining pretty badly. seems like we pick the worst days to head out. but the room's so stuffy you dont want to stay indoors. and turning on the aircon means high electricity bills. didn't show up for class today. that's it. i will be VERY PUNCTUAL tomorrow.
thankfully it's afternoon class.
gave myself a real treat today. 100 bucks on a haircut! but the service at matinee this jap salon is really good. they don't push you to get stuff or irriate you. soft jazz music and a really nice concept with the decor. the whole buiding is really modeled after the English styles. real treat for the eyes. and the washing hair people are japanese guys who are quite cute! but that's not the point coz the next time i head back it'll be 200 bucks. :(
there was this dvd shop and as usual i ended up with another 3 sets of shows to watch.
and i had my first macdonald's meal in SH!
okay off to shower!
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
moan., me needs some me time. i've been staying out consecutively for a few days now. after class, lunch, then sitting about or walking about and wasting the time away. then dinner and wasting about then it's at least 1am before i sleep. so i usually end up bleary-eyed or late for class.
today we went out so i bought a few things. like choc digestives, a toothbrush, an umbrella and some cucmber face mask. the umbrella is really cool. it has frills and it's the big skinny kind. i know it sounds really insane coz for years and years i've been carrying those lightweight foldable sorts. but this is the big girly kind.
and the face mask. it's the Korean Mamonde brand. i'm having skin allergies now and i'm scared that it's going to make it worse. but it's not getting better anyway. so maybe the cucumber will help.
off now. else i'll be up really late again.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
argh..
alone.finally bought a broom and did some minor sweeping. haven't been keeping up with my cleanliness routine. maybe i'll do some mopping in a couple of days.
saw mil yesterday. she just came back from the gym and was totally oozing endorphins and happy vibes. i really need exercise. getting fat. i be i put on at least a couple of kilos. urgh. fast are women's best friend.
not diamonds.
had indian food again yesterday. i almost completely avoid chinese food now. like lunch today was kebabs. and there's a high chance
shoju and korean food will be on the menu tomorrow if we really go for ktv.
i'm turning 19. just 3 or 4 days. where did 18 go?
seriously. i really haven't accomplished anything great. unles you count getting good grades, getting into the university, doing the shanghai stint, living in the hostel.. okay so maybe it doesn't sound quite so bad. but they're all so tangible. oh well.
enough said.
i've got to shower.
