Friday, March 31, 2006
saw the eye doctor today. apparently my eyesight hasn't deteriorated. remained completely the same. which leaves me puzzled coz i'm convinced that post-As my eyesight has certainly gotten worse. especially my right eye. i get the feeling that i may end up making contacts the next time round though i can't really be bothered.
dropped by HC today. and posted 2 cards into the teachers' pigeon holes. i would have hung around a while longer but it felt sorta odd to be walking about alone.
went to meet junjia. and we ate at sakae for lunch before shopping and taking neos. my shopping stamina is really getting pretty bad. and something which happened last june sort of reoccurred. i got a little dizzy in the changing room. and flushed. i think i lack exercise. been feeling sort of stuffy and unwell.
and knowing how paranoid i am, i usually imagine that i have contarcted all the illnesses. the most recent obsession is hepatitis A. coz i chanced on a brochure and since i matched several symptoms, i started thinking that i had Hep A. how brilliant eh?
anyway we shopped and i bought a pair of bermudas and a denim mini skirt from zara. me likes zara bottoms and mango tops. though considering that i'm losing my btt, i'll probably fit mango bottoms too. the zara skirt has officially ironed my butt into nothingness. urgh.
and i've faded into another lighter shade. so i can't even wear powder pink now since i look like i'm sick. and another thing. i'm off all those chocolates! and biscuits and refined carbs. been bingeing on them for the past month.
junjia refreshed my memory aout what gina said a while back. gina said then that she thinks the more she knows me the more she finds me hard to understand. so she said if she finds guy who understands me, she'll be really surprised. haha. not just her. i would be too. junjia says i'm more cynical than her. that's an achievement.
i realise i enjoy making people laugh more than laughing myself. even if it meant that people would get greater fun out of laughing at what i do. i still feel better. so maybe laughing really hard is still sometimes a novel idea to me. but i'd be seriously upset if people didn't laugh in my company. i'm odd huh?
walk away
you've been gripping too hard.
it's mostly slipped through your fingers
there's no way out but to let go now.
walk away, away girl.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
how does one know whether the path ahead is meant for you? i bet this question has crossed the minds of many of us, our fingers poised over the mouse button, wondering whether the click of the mouse will really seal our fate.
the thing is. we don't know. at least, i think i know it's the one for me. but ultimately, it's in the future that we find concrete answers. besides, sometimes love comes after marriage.
everyone tells me to pursue my dreams, follow your heart. sometimes the heart is disillusioned and sometimes it just walks off in the wrong direction. so i will go on and like anything that i am to do.
in case i've forgotten to mention, i'm home now. and it feels so fuzzywuzzy-ish. so maybe my room's more empty now. and my mom shifted the furniture in my room so i was a little disoriented when i walked in. but home's still home. with all talk and laughter. i love my sister! can't wait to take her shopping for her birthday present during the weekend.
we went to shangri-la to find out some details about wedding banquets. they have VERA WANG gowns. and there's all this pretty pretty gifts and nice gauze decorations! and the expensive ranges have themes around the wedding dinners. but the price...
i'm tellin' ya. getting married is one HEFTY INVESTMENT. with no dividends. nless you count the kids which come after that. and even then those are greater investments. sometimes with heavy losses.
but anyway, staring at all those pretty, white dresses. it hit me. I WANT TO GET MARRIED! and what if i don't? my sister jested and said i could still wear the bridesmaid dresses even if i didn't get to wear the white gowns. :(
the weather in singapore is very hot. i stepped into the airport thinking,'hmm..pretty warm huh?' what i didn't know was that it was much worse outside. stepping into the carpark. whoah. the heat just hit me like one of those stifling sackcloths meant to smother you.
i went and had a haircut in the afternoon. after using the computer for a bit. my regular hairdresser was on vacation, so i got some other guy. he's pretty funny. i said i wanted my hair short. and then he went," okay...i'm starting. you prepared?"
i also enquired about the primary factors that contribute to hair loss. namely, oily scalp, climate and the lack of sleep.
so my hair is short. MICH it looks a bit like yours!
i'm swinging between the two extremes. one moment, i love it and the next moment, i'm having panic attacks. but i can't change it except wait for it to grow out. it's nice and fresh. sort of younger. but it's boyish. all i need to do is tuck the hair behind my ears and poof! i'm like male.
okie. my bed beckons. night night.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
*gasps* i really wonder if i'm so easy to trick.
anyway i just got my leg pulled. massive advanced april fool's joke. and i feel rather embarrassed thinking about it. but i'm really relieved that it was a joke. coz if it was real. it'd be pretty sucky.
interesting how jokes have evolved from the usual "hey there's a spider" to something really serious.
i'm slacking away in the hostel. taking some personal time. i'm intending to sleep really early tonight. like 8pm or something.
i'm trying to figure how i'm gonna load the water barrel seeing that it weighs like 20kg or something.
i'm really piling on the kilos. how can anyone not? when one eats dinner at like 5 and then snacks on chocolate biscuits and what not in the day? summer's coming and what hapens when the layers are being peeled away and i'm reduced to a sack of lumpy potatoes?
i want to go back to HC one day next week. who wants to come with me?
Monday, March 27, 2006
stupid stupid me.
i went and left my keys in the hostel and went out. and it's after office hours so i had to pay 50 bucks to get some locksmith to pick the lock.
and imagine if i lost the keys then i'd have to pay to make a new lock(horror of horrors). stupid stupid me.
but of course, i got to take a closer look at the people who stay in my hostel. my teacher stays on the sixth floor. and coz i ws stuck in the lobby for nearly an hour, i got to see who actually came by.
thanks but no thanks, i don't want to misplace my keys again. i think i just brought forward the onset of white hair by 5 years.
my already stretched finances are reaching bursting point. i had to swop 20 dollars for 100 RMB with my dad. and i'm on a 100 RMB loan from my dad. i'll never save enough money for that photoshoot thingy.
i'm so smart.
