Friday, March 17, 2006
i never got to eating my cereal today. coz i woke up 12.30pm, leaving me with 40 minutes to get ready and appear in class. and obviously consume a hurried breakfast or lunch.
ate 2 paus(remember the au craze in J2?). and i was stil 10 minutes late.
i notice the nearer i stay to school, the later i am.
today was a really nice day. not an in-your-face loud nice. but just a slow-mo sort. class was good. really interactive and funny.
we had some debate thingy after the lesson proper. a group of 5 doing the opposition. 3 koreans, 1 japanese and me. the debate was about the necessity of new creative ideas in becoming successful.
somehow jeong-eun remembered seeing the new-found creation involving some wearable gadget meant for containing toilet rolls. so you can wear it on your head and yank the paper from the top. we ended up laughing uncontrollably. and the 2 korean girls just laughed till they cried.
and coming back from school, i walked past a small school garden. the white peach blossoms have finally opened. and so have the small purple roadside flowers.
i guess living in tropical singapore, i didn't bother noticing the flora. it's perpetually there.
but spring's come. and the flowers know it too.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
if my stomach doesn't screw up tomorrow, i'm eating cereal. i'm currently taking a late-night snack. one of the diet no-nos(ie. no food after 8pm etc etc)
trying to finish up the carton of milk in the fridge before i leave the hostel tomorrow. but i still have quite a way to go. coz what was supposed to be a carton for a week was left untouched due to my rebeling stomach. i still have another 600ml or more.
i shall leave out the serious stuff coz i want to be lighthearted for now.
japanese snacks are seriously yummy. lika keeps gving me them and they're really good. i don't usually take those printed biscuits with animal pictures or whatever, but they're quite good.
i had chinese painting class today. missed the cooking one coz i didn't check the schedule earlier. anyway, we painted prawns today. mine looked more like slugs at first though i'd say they look quite like prawns now. maybe sometimes a little like lobsters.
got back really late last night. 11+. was a little scared at first coz i'm like a stranger to this place and all. but it's really bright at night. but there aren't many people on the streets. and mostly men. i'll go explore the pubs here soon. with a friend or something. coz my classmates keep wandering off.
today's a thursday. i used to hate thursdays in st nix coz it meant late days. and in J1, i believe we had practicals which ende dlate on thursday. but thursday in J2 was good. early days which were really short meant nice long breakfasts in the morning. now thursday just means sleeping in on friday!
it's afternoon class tomorrow. haven't decided what i'll do in the morning. maybe i'll walk around and explore the area.
my table is a mess. the rest of the room looks pretty okay except for the clothes rack which is really flimsy and keeps falling apart. a kick which is supposed to prop it a little, sends it leaning on the other end and soon the base poles just about give way. i'm tempted to get a second clothes rack but that would mean no floor space.
about my table. when it has to accomodate a water dispenser, a shelf of snacks, cutlery, a dustbin, and my books, laptop and odds and ends(it's the only table in my room) i can't see my table anymore.
i saw something floating in the water in my water dispenser today. it looked like a yer of dirt which got trapper in the filter but had found it's way into the tumbler. i can't get it out. so i'll just have to continue drinking from it.
off i go..
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
i don't want to be an outsider anymore. always looking in.
watching the ball game on the tv screen, hearing people tell you about the amusement park when you've not sat the rollercoaster yourself.
it's not that i particularly hate the situation i put myself in. just that, maybe i don't want to hear about the game anymore. i don't want someone to say how it was so exciting when i can't play it or watch it. i don't want someone to tell me it was painful that the lost coz i don't friggin' giveadamn.
i want to be part of the game. simply coz i've never played before.
Monday, March 13, 2006
i believe i watched in Harry Potter. it's always been a choice between what's right and what's easy. so maybe, one choice may not always be right, but most often, one choice is easier.
and this time, i didn't choose the easier path. and i hope, i'll keep choosing the right or difficult one.
today was one of the crappiest days since i came here. yeah i got the socks i mentioned before. when i was slightly cheerier this morn. but everything kinda just went downhill from there. and today was one of the days when i let my paranoia get the better of me.
in some ways, i'm feeling disconnected. like i haven't found a little niche to house myself. and i've sort of taken myself away from what used to be a place which had my name on it. taken myself away from friends, from home.
but this will have to be a new home.
getting the flu bug today was not a good idea. i'm officially sick and had to excuse myself from lessons midway through and later explained myself out of it. which i can't be too sure the teacher understood.
so nearly drank tap water to swallow some medication but the cleaning lady in the school told me that drinking the water will make me sick.
got back to the hostel feeling utterly shitty. my nose is running badly. my stomach flu condition has somewhat eased. but i'm still extremely sensitive to the food here.
and it's times like these, when i question my choice. should i not have come? how suited am i to being overseas? not fabulous i'd say.
but i refuse to say it aloud that i want to come home, no matter how much i'm saying inside. coz this is the LAST TIME i'm saying it inside.
she's a little bitter, she's a little blue.
she's a litte left out, she's a little screwed.
but she won't hide, and she won't shy.
she won't run, she won't cry.night world. i'm really sleep-deprived.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
yours truly is playing domesticated and playing fashionista at the same time.
my foot. the former was true, the latter, we'll have to see.
i find peeling veggies oddly therapeutic. is that odd? i especially love peeling guavas. and slicing bittergourd. in general i think i really enjoy cooking. just returning home on weekends to prepare a few meals for my dad and save myself from eating some really awful food outside.
ever tasted a beef steak where you seriously doubted if it was beef they were serving you?
i went gym-ing yesterday. i ran like 15 minutes on the treadmill and then fell asleep on the cycling machine.
and saturday, i went to cashbox(aka party world) to sing karaoke. they charged like 200RMB per hour for the room. friggin' ex. must drag my dad to kbox one day. and we went to century park to cycle. if it can be called cycling in the first place coz t was a receational elderly vehicle that we were sitting(xiu xian lao ye che). but it was raining and it was really pretty coz everything started fogging up.
the cold front is upon us and the temperature has dropped like 10-15 degrees after being sunny for a week.
i've got school in a few hours. but i wanna wear my new boots and that involves walking 20 minutes to the shopping centre to buy black stockings.
fine. i won't wear the boots today. i'll just go traipsing and exploring the shopping centres.
ho wait, someone needs to watch her budget. after treating her parents to dinner last week for good results, the week's allowance is almost non-existent.
dunno if i've mentioned this. i had a haircut a week plus back. and its still screwing up.
