Friday, September 23, 2005
hohoho. 3 days of glorious play play and play!
'all work and
not enough play makes Jack a dull boy' quoth i.
i honestly did think of siting down and preparing my applications and studying for SATs but that hasn't begun. and i have like 2 weeks tops. somebody SHOCK me!
but it does feel oh-so-good to just engage yourself in play now. after all the guilt-ridden pleasures before. but let's not get too caught up honeys! there's work to be done.
i went out with my momma yesterday! my mom used to take a day of leave during the school hols and take me out shopping when i was younger coz i didn't go out by myself. that was in primary school and lower sec i think. and i would totally bypass all the clothing shops but instead traipse from wheelock to centrepoint, stopping at EVERY bookstore, buying up loads of books and heading home for the rest of the hols to just read.
well, that has changed loads. i don't even head into bookstores every time i head out.
we went out around lunchtime and stopped at picnic for beef noodles. we do that like every time. then we started walking around and i saw this really pretty pair of shoes at Tangs. it was pink and lacy but i didn't get it(i know, i'm so regretting now). headed to wisma and got a pairs of white ribboned shoes with a pretty black and white tube dress! mom's nice, she paid. i really like my dress. it's bold, like me. had yakun for tea and sushi tei for dinner. my mom bought a book(ironic since she rarely reads).
ooh and i forgot to mention. i ran into ger gladys and alex too. after the bio S.
headed to keppel to karaoke! and stayed out till like 1 am. and so here i am, after waking up like 2 hours ago.
but anyways, yesterday was such a feel-good day. i'm sorry that my mom couldn't find the shoes she wanted though. and she quite hates shopping too. she loathes walking around aimlessly and totally thinks that i'm perpetually gallivanting(i learnt that word when i was like 12 coz my mom used it on me)
i think we're going out today so i hope she finds what she wants.
ooh. and i checked out the phones. the E-3** i dunno what that model is which gilyn likes. i mean, it's pretty and all. with 4 colours to choose from. and really sleek, and curvaceous and small and slim and SMALL! i don't quite like it though. makes me feel like it'll just drop out of my hands..i don't like clamshells, i like the it's-all-there-at-a-glance concept. and i think rectangles and squares are nice.
i like the Sony Ericsson W800i! and me wants it.. so i'm gonna get it! like soon.
ooh. and there's been pretty sensitive issues regarding public blogs and now junjia's changing her blog add to protect it from pryin eyes. did consider that but it's way to troublesome. besides a blog isn't that public anyway. therre'll always be things that you won't say. and the writer always considers his/her audience before penning anything.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
today was pretty nice. i slept in. then took a bus and went grocery shopping.
was totally domesticated for a day.
headed home and spent the day watching tv and baking a cheesecake. and yay! i succeded! the first cake that has succeeded. success defined by that it did not become a dense muffin/biscuit/cookie and i could actually sink my teeth in and figure that it was a cheesecake. quite happy. and i decorated it with sweetened cream and strawberries :)
but it wasn't the end result that pleased me. more like the concentration and focus on something other than exam papers and questions. and channeling energy into crushing digestive biscuits.
the evening wasn't so good though. i realise that i'm quite a loner at times. quite content with being a recluse at times.
but anyways. my math tutor came over and let's just say that it didn't go too well. can't really blame her. i mean, i am improving. but certain topics i just can't figure them out and i get really lost. and her presence stresses me into making all sorts of blunders and careless mistakes that she is absolutely convinced that i'm stupid or something. it's not so much what she says.. just the tone. sounds something like 'this is so not the time to be ...etc etc' or 'why [you] still like that?'
i'm going to wake up at 5 am tomorrow. quite excited. i decided to make breakfast for my family so i'm gonna fry bacon and pork brautwursts, scramble eggs and make toast and tea. then i'll head out for a nice mother-daughter day.
'i'm learning not to ask for too much now. just the little pleasures here and there. they do make up the happiest moments.
but i still do wish that smiles were more permanent. they're quite so fleeting, aren't they?'
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
hohoho.
FORGET IT. thereisnopointinblogging.
i'm finding it increasingly hard for me to organise my thoughts and finding logical conclusions for them. i remember when i went for an interview for CCA head in sec 3, my seniors commented that i was contradicting myself and i didn't know what to think. i understand better now.
sometimes i know i think in a certain way and so i conclude but then i'll think in another manner and i'll sum up again only to realise that they don't match so WHATEVER.
1. thank you. i had fun today. it was all pretty unfamiliar but still fun nonetheless.
2. i won't bother explaining myself. i figure that if i'm happy, it's coz of little pleasures and there's no point proclaiming that for the world to see. if i'm sad, i don't need to make anyone else sadder.
if people didn't care they won't bother regardless of where it's posted. and if you really did care, then you'd ask me. so there.
my mom's been bugging me to stop blogging. and i can't. it's not something to stop. it's soemthing you outgrow. like Sweet Valley books. gradually you stop feeling the need to read them. though truthfully i didn't quite outgrow them, they just stopped publishing new books and i didn't want to bother with the old ones.
but one day, i'll outgrow this. and i know then, that i'll be perfectly happy keeping my silence.
we're all pretty alone after all. better stock up on anecdotes, funny experiences, queer stories and memories to amuse yourself in the long run.
