Saturday, July 02, 2005
sigh. why is it that whenever you want and need to shop, you can never get anything?
i've been to town twice in 2 days and i can't find anything.
and it does sound quite so superficial to have an affliction due to the lack of things or should like say the lack of things you desperately love to buy.
just hear me, i'm whining about insufficient shopping.
ate at shimbashi soba for dinner. i thought it would have been marvelous but nope, it tastes just okay. but mom's soba was nice. it was all slimy from the yam paste and quail egg. and you can drink
soba-yu. and nope it isn't liek soya sauce or something.
so i didn't skip today. though i did walk in the park. can't rev my engine enough to run. but then i did come home and play the diet mode of Dance-Dance-Revolution(haha, it reminds me of DDR, Deterrance-Dsomething-Rehabilitation of PW)and i burned 100 cals. hmm..i shall go find my old hoola hoop. i miss it. it was all nice and purpley and had little beads in it which would make such nice noises. it's a quality hoop man. i just hope that the plastic didn't degenerate over the years. maybe it's polytetravinylchloride. bleah.
my momma ordered two pieces of bedside table from park mall. and since there really isn't anywhere to place them, they've come to my room to seek lodging. i'm quite happy. they're kinda low(think japanese low bed kind of bedside table) so technically if i'm gonna use them i might consider rolling off the bed to get my stuff. i'm gonna use them as tea-tables or bookstands. they're a delicious ringgae(how to spell?) nice and woody and black. such an intense wood colour eh?
it's OC transcripts time!
Friday, July 01, 2005
whammer! suddenly i'm tired.
all the stress and fuss and now i feel intense relief. end of blocks!
went out after that. but i don't think i can really have fun after major papers, i need time to come to terms with it. something like when i ended the O's and got my results. though this should technically count as a minor.
i don't like walking aimlessly. at least i like shopping and stuff. but i don't like wandering without getting anything. i'm a compulsive shopper and shopping without buying is no fun. boo.
random 1: i am a anna/seth shipper. but then i'm also a summer/seth shipper. is it possible to be both at the same time? truth is, they both look sweet. and seth's sweet. don't matter if he's somewhat a geek or whatever, he's witty humorous and sweet.
random 2: i finally got my face mask and face peel done. i feel so much better and suddenly in more ways than one, i can breathe. maybe the times in the past week when i woke up halfway thinking that i was gonna choke and stop breathing were kinda related to this skin not breathing thing.
random 3: at least i can resume reading Anne again!
random 4: i think i can embark on a detox diet. fruits are getting to be tasting mre yummy. and after the cheese wedges and potato salad and cream pasta today, it's high time for detox!
random 5: i won't be running or swimming tomorrow anymore. sob. i know, i'll skip!! i found these skipping ropes while helping my mom pack some board games.
Thursday, June 30, 2005
i swear my whole class doesn't come online. not during this exam period. sigh. anthon got out of the blocks! he only needed to take the gp and econs paper and has since disappeared.
i have chem left. which i'm really screwed for. i shall mug tonight. since my brain has been refusing to shut down for a few days. it short-circuits at night but refuses to sleep.
----one can stop here. it's unnecessary to read on----
i'm gonna start rambling. i'm trying to keep myself occupied and busy now. channel everything into work and enjoyign myself. there's pretty much nothing else in my life so i guess play hard work hard and the rest will fall in place.
and it's almost sufficient to delude me. anything to take me away. i'll even get excited about writing essays. anything to prove to myself that i'm an achiever with many things to do, many chances for accomplishments. and i can almost shut out everything else.
swimming, exercising reading and shopping, channeling every excess bit of energy into something productive don't you think? but then i wonder when i turn around, seeing things i wish i was could be as oblivious to, then i realise that one isn't always so indifferent.
i made a pact. a very reasonable one. and i will not ask for more. i shall patiently wait it out. and for now, i will sink myself in satisfying all the materialistic wants, challenging my so-called limits and pretty much back to my exercising and 'work done' fervour.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
i guess i'm the only normal/abnormal person who's coming online now in the midst of blocks. can't help it.
i think i'll screw up my math paper even though i've got a chance at it coz i'm using up the math time studying for bio. and by tomorrow i'll be in deep shit.
dinner on sunday was good. it was lovely catching up. but i'm not gonna sit and blog about dinner on sunday when i'm a grouch right now.
i don't have a right to be a grouch. that gp essay i wrote today was the first one i've finished on time since blocks1. and i actually felt something for the compre so that means i may actually write a few lines of AQ which i will get marks for. i hope. like when i wrote about the casino issue and didn't sound like i cared. not that i did much anyway.
now the real reason why i'm a grouch.
tea is my good friend. really good friend. it's soothing and calming. but coffee. now i hate coffee. more now than i did before.
i downed a whole cup of coffee yesterday afternoon so i won't sleep but believing it won't make a dfference since i sleep like a log. then night came and i couldn't sleep early. 10, 11, 12, 1.. then i dropped off into fits of slumber and felt all wired and tired in the morn.
the papers ended but then i started feeling really warm and heaty. urgh.
i need to exercise! i must get the heat out of my system!
till the morrow. ya know, hwachong killer bio. what else is there to say?
