Friday, June 10, 2005
i am sad. so sad. it's a sad sad situation*croons ridiculously*
what happened to OC! i was looking forward to a faint glimmer of plesantness every thursday of the holidays to perk me up amidst an endless sea of weariness, boredom and not to mention dread. but the broadcasting authroties have robbed me, of even such a simple innocent pasttime.
i mean, it shows late in school terms so i skip it and now, they're not showing it. i am horrifically mortified. can't figure which is worse. the fact that there's no OC or the fact that i'm not horrified at my lack of study. *wink*
on more serious topics. i just received an email regarding the camp i'm facilitating. with junjia and gilyn.
i just knew it. and i'm gonna keep up with this despondent note till the camp is over and i realise i probably enjoyed it. i mean, along with thunder/lightning-phobia(which i dare say that mr wong doesn't believe i have) i have also, creepycrawlie-phobia, dark/supernatural-phobia selffailure-phobia and not the least of all, camp-phobia. cultivated from 4 years of NP camps. and the discovery vacation camp which i attended when i was 8 and i was sick, happily puking away the whole time. so not fun. sure, they provided exquisite memories to be looked back on and laughed over a cuppa with friends and close squadmates but they fear that goes before it, is not to be belittled.
so i'm partnering a guy from ITE Bishan. and we're supposed to discuss and call people. brief personally and inform the participants of the kit list which looks very intimidating and there's 101 things to do. and it sounds oh-so NP-ish. i bet i would have been able to do this 2 and a half years ago. still fresh out of NP or in it, i was so used to all the take-orders-and-perform thingies. but having had a break, where self-decision and personal choice rules supreme, i simply cannot envision what i used to do.
i guess i'll just jump straight in. a
woman's gotta do what a
woman's gotta do.
with good cheer, potion's offered to help me in chem. and jiachien suggested study sessions when we both end early from free peroids.. yayy. i mean, there's absolutely nothing funny or fun about studying but one can at least pretend to be hardworking or motivated. any help is greatly appreciated. so thanks to potion and jiachien!
and.. this one's really important. heez. i've been reading old storybooks for the past few days, so explaining my lack of study. finished Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm 2 days ago. so sweet! which inspired me to watch the dvd for Anne of Green Gables which led me to re-reading Anne of Green Gables.
i have gravely decided that Five Run Away Together in the famous five series is my favourite young kids book, the Anne series by L. M. Montgomery especially Anne of Green Gables, Anne of the Island and Rilla of Ingleside is my absolute favourite children's book. it so very wholesome. and i've practically read the covers of the book.(kidding) The Child Queen by Nancy McKenzie is the sweetest and bittersweetest romance story, Memoirs of a Geisha a splendid culture book and Gone with the Wind a fabulous epic. An Old-Fashion Girl's the most endearing and inspiring. in recent years, there hasn't been any moving book so it's been pretty sad.
i know it's positively insane that i'm reading children's books now. it's only add to my general regression in terms of mental upbringing. but you'd be surprised. predilection is found in Anne! so technically if i learnt it when i was 13, then there wouldn't have been a need to learn that word for the SATs. unfortunately i did no such thing.
if i ever have kids, i wish they'll love reading(mags and catalogues do not count. and in this case i'm not exactly thinking of newspapers, sci-fi or what-not) as much as i do, or did. it's the most wholesome and inspiring hobby.
that said and done, i shall get my daily dosage of OC transcripts now. unfortunately so, since i can't get the episodes.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
what am i doing??
i'm beginning to think that either i'm severely leacking in urgency or common sense just fails me at the most crucial moments.
i honestly think my mind's tuned to having a holiday now.
last week was fine. at least i was doing maybe 10 question or reading one chapter in a day. slow, but i could say that i was gradually warming up to the task at hand.
but no. i've totally warmed up and cooled down. i orginally planned to cover one subject in one week. excluding gp since i figure i suck at it no matter what. but the 2nd week's flown by mostly and i've not done anything.
and there's the dreaded camp next week. oh help.
Monday, June 06, 2005
ack. i'm online.
againwatched The Count of Monte Cristo last night on dvd. it's a great film.
about betrayal between friends. and the whole process of the story was pretty well-developed. the ending's a little too happy though. you'd think that with how bitter Dantes has become, he'd be too eaten to be able to experience love and happiness and warmth again.
sigh. i really need to be getting out of the house. the whole stay-at-home-and-accomplish-work thing is so not working. if only i accomplished anything it's be great. but considering my 1 math question the whole morning, that's hardly anything to be proud of.
argh. and i really gotta stop tucking into those biscuits. it's going to be the death of me!
tell me again. what school is for.
went back for remedial. school can be such a drag sometimes. what more in the holidays when the only driving force is guilt. compulsion absents itself in the hols. but your conscience comes in and plays such a dramatic role. i guess that's why i'm actually attempting to do some semblance of work.
worse. i dropped by the supermart and ended up with 3 varieties of crackers. just so i can occupy myself when i'm bogged down with work. say hi to fat me when school starts.
ooh. ate another slice of my delectable choc fudge birthday cake from hiestand. my sister so has great taste in cakes. yumyum.
oh darn. i'm yet again afflicted with a bad case of
shopping fever.
sigh. it's such a trying illness see? trying very hard not to buy a cd now. i keep buying 'em. i have loads of crap junk. i mean, i like them, a good number of them and there were those which i got for no reason. so wanna get lucie silvas album and jem's too! she's one of the singers who's been featured a few times in the OC's soundtrack. unfortunately she's kinda niche, so it's hard to find her cds. *sob*
clothes clothes and more clothes!
this is totally unrelated. i read an article about botched up beauty and plastic surgery jobs. eek. was in the new paper. it really makes you wonder where the success stories come from, since the doctors see an obscene number of cases.
also, i saw my baby cousin over the weekend. baby cousin no more. he's older now. one year maybe? actually i can't really remember. but he's taller. and turning out to be a handsome little boy. that ittybittylittlething.
last random event. i played tennis, bubbled in the jacuzzi and swam yesterday. feeling deceptively healthy now. my sis says i've got ball sense and should take up tennis again.
and i watched the men's french open finals yesterday. so proud of myself. never thought i'd ever watch a tennis match. nadial won. he's like 19! so freakin' young!
there there. i shall amuse myself with OC transcripts now.
