thank you all of you

for a beautiful 030605.
for all the yesterdays that have shaped me into who i am today.

i'm not going to blog about today's events. at least not now. trying to document and write in out in some chronological format totally belittles everything.
maybe tomorrow.
but for now, it isn't the tangible which matters.

for all my friends. every message or kind gesture.
just aking it special for me.

for my family. i want to celebrate it with you every year. to know that i want to be at home for a meal on every birthday.

another candle to my cake
another year to my age
another wrinkle to my face
another bittersweet aftertaste

had some inspiration early this morning like 12am. but i guess it doesn't apply anymore.

it's official.

i am 18.
oh gawd.

pretty please, let it be an exhilarating year ahead. with nary a regret, a stupid decision or a foolish mistake.
just a beautiful year.

thank you.

thank you. debs, char and yihan, coming out with me to shop and sing and eat and hearing me whine my giddyness.

thank you. all of you actually for writing in the card. and those who made a trip to write. :)

thank you. the girls who planned yesterday! thanks for the card, cake, top and the shoes which i'm not supposed to wear till july. hees

thank you. for being there to celebrate it with me, for me. :)

yesterday was pretty cool.
went to town and met yihan. we shopped. or at least, i shopped. and tried unsuccessfully to get yihan to buy something. debs joined us later, both of us got a top each and me got a bag. retail therapy is awfully effective. though walking in and out of changing rooms and trying on clothes made me a little dizzy and queasy. there's something wrong with my digestive system. i like snacking in between, but i'm not so hungry anymore when it comes to the larger meals and it's awful sad coz food is one of life's greatest pleasures.

we headed to kbox and sang for 3 over hours then joined the class girls for dinner at ichiban boshi.
junjia dragged me to the toilet for i don't know what reason which i found out eventually. thanks peeps.
then we tried on stuff in topshop. there's this green top which is really weird. the straps are so long you'd think your boobs are at your waist.
went to vnc to change the shoes to a larger size. my feet are large. bigger than junjia's and shinwei's. if i ever bind mine into 3-inch-golden-lilies i'll never walk again. no more black pair so i got this pretty white pumps with this butterfly on them. weep can't wear for another month. (ever hear that shoes are a fat girl's best friend) precisely, the fact that i'm getting so happy about shoes must be coz i can't get anything else :P
ooh. and i bought this notebook from prints! finally got the notebook i've been wanting for a year. the one which was decided on in an instant.
ailin was kind, sat with me to yiochukang and helped me hold my stuff.

so today. was pretty fruitful. i didn't a little math. and i dug up all my neoprints to stick onto the cover of the notebook. which i finished, though i think i made it worse.
but the highlight was watching miss universe!
ah. okay gasp whatever. it's a ritual. a yearly affair. i get very upset when i miss it. i just love watching that beauty pageant. grew up thinking they're pretty, still think so. i remember my sis and i taking pictures of the tv screen when we were kids. now with the internet, don't need such primitive measures anymore.
canada won. she and venezuela look really similar. venezuela is so pretty. i really think she looks real sweet and endearing. so maybe they're all freaking tall and these words seem rather inappropriate. but venezuela's got really lustrous brown-black tresses, with a pretty oval face, beautiful eyes and a winning hesitant smile.
i realise that i don't like the blond-hair-blue-eyed types. 2003's dominican republic, 2005's venezuela and 2002's russia are all pretty! the angelic dark-haired look.

excuse me back there. i'm just a lil' crazy. penchant for all the dazzling gowns.
can't help it. isn't it every girl's dream to be a princess?

i'm such an ass. watched sound of music today. would ya believe it? i nearly cried. it was touching. but that's totally insane. i mean, i've never felt that way. but even happy endings are sad too. sad coz it'll never happen to you. sad coz if it wasn't for that single opportunity, it could have amounted to nothing.
but ultimately, love triumphs all.

my dad solemnly asked me today what were my plans for the future. post-As. he said, would it be local U, overseas U or poly?
and i was like, poly? i mean, if i wanted poly, i would have chosen it 2 years ago. but apparently, looking at my grades, he's stating a fact that i may end up there at the rate i'm going.
BINGO!
i'm so dead.

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