Wednesday, July 28, 2004
st nix! all the way!
we got double champ again!
the rush of exhilaration is something one seldom feels these days.
and st nix beat singapore sports school in their own game. that counts for a lot.
go yanlin!
gawd, she ran superbly well. i guess 'run like the wind' should be her.
i think i'm gonna try out for the creative writing competition. it may be the only time i'll ever write something which isn't about presenting 2 sides of an essay. inspiration hit me!
lastly, i'm gonna try writing a written diary.
my gp essay supported the use of the online diary with superficial arguments. i thought perhaps that i wasn't able to substantiate my stand.
but it's dawning on me, that perhaps i never had much to say. but that my own biased perception influenced my writing.
i guess the only good reason(and perhaps its bad points too) is that there'll always be someone to read it. it can be fatal though.
but if written diaries can help me assemble my thoughts better and encourage me to write objectively and concisely, then why not?
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
i'm sick. of life.
and i'm sick. half-sick. so i cancelled tuition today.
and i skipped yoga again.
spoke to mrs tan about my gp essay and later decided that trekking halfway across the universe to chinese high dance studio was just far too much of a strain.
bought a skirt on saturday, the night of the njco concert. i'm glad. it's a medium. i haven't fitted medium since forever. sometimes i can't even fit an Asian large.
i'm gratified that the shop's called People of Asia P.O.A.
and the shopping bug's struck me down again. i want that super low scoop-necked black top and the striking pink skirt from POA.
and bon voyage char! have an enriching time in london!
meet a guy, marry him and don't ever come back. it beats studying here.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
prong: yep. time really flies. it's like a year now. is that fast or what? and yep again i'll be back for POP.
speaking of time. i wonder where it went to. i have this empty pocket of space which i can't seem to figure what i filled it up with. more than half a year has gone and i have nothing to my credit.
i did get back bio. and i got an F. so it's final. D F F F. really grand. except that with the extra mark i'm getting for bio due to calculation error i'll egt O instead. and moderation fr chem will through it to D O O F. doofus. sigh. what can i say?
except that i should've done a lot worse. yihan studied so much harder. i'm like second last in class for every subject just coz yihan scored worse.
i can't leave things to chance anymore. chance doesn't give you chances. it gives you excuses. and i don't have a life to waste away.
did somemore PW today. i still have lots to go. besides i still have to hand in an explanatory letter to my bio teacher telling why i did so darned badly. i have to think really hard on what i have to say. honestly, i'm remorseful. but i'm this large lazy bag of bones and FATS. heex. so i can say nothing except that i was too lazy and didn't feel like starting till it was too late and by then, starting wouldn't have made much difference. though i did start.
here's the thing. i have an attitude problem. a big one. i mean, sure, everyone has attitudes. but mine's a problem which is getting bigger. can't really explain that.
but something more substantial is that whenever i walk in crowds i have this urge to bash people up. like in orchard, there are these throngs of people squeezing and moving and all i wanna do is shoo them away and shove them aside.
i mean, none of this sounds healthy right? more so, i'm analysing juvenile delinquency and all. so people who exhibit aggressive behaviour or have aggressive tendencies are high-risk delinquents so does that make me one?
or not. since i don't qualify as a juvenile anymore, not since i was 15.
which brings me back to the point, time really flies.
