Friday, July 16, 2004
some random musings:
there's a distinct difference between seises and the rest of the class.
totally.
sure. we get along with everybody but we just don't mix all that much with them.
the guys are nice.
but seises are cool people.
we don't do things moderately.
we laugh and laugh and laugh.
then go all depressed. to the extreme.
frankly, i'd rather swing between the extremes then hang balancing in the middle.
chick flicks are cute. i think bimbos rock.
i'm not refering to those who like pink. 'coz sure, i like pink too.
i mean those who carry that character. i rewatched Mean Girls today at cine.
an excerpt from the movie:
karen: i'm stupid.
cady: no you're not.
karen: i am. i really am. i'm failing all my subjects.
cady: i'm sure there's something you're good at. think.
karen: well yes. i can put my whole fist into my mouth. wanna see?
cady: uh, no. it's okay. come on, i'm sure you cna do better.
karen: i'm psychic. you know, i have a fifth sense(you mean you only had four?!). it's like i have ESPN(a sports channel?) or something.
cady: oh.
karen: you know, my boobs, they can tell when it's going to rain.
(that was completely hilarious. especially since karen went on to do weather forecasting using her boobs)
oh. and lastly. i'm on a diet.
a real one.
a fruit, low-carb, one-meal-in-school diet.
means, only one solid meal(i usually eat 2), lots of fruit(high in fibre and really filling) and low-carb(basically, like sandwich without bread or less bread or less rice something)
i fully intend to lose 6 kg after 2 months.
oh and no fried poppadam for at least 10 days from now.
my friends and some clasmates are waiting to see how long i can last. me, the perso who can consume 2 packets of that a day.
wish me luck!
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
i love
you. you know who you are. i care. and i'm very happy for you that you are doing well. getting fabulous results and all. i'm not gonna be a damper on your spirits. and i ask you, strive for whatever you want, however you want, whenever you want. i'll support you all the way. but know, that whilest you're outstanding now, i'm an underachiever/underperformer. whether by my own means or not.
i'm really happy for you. but know that i'm in no joyous celebratory mood.
i'm settling in. i finally am. it sure took a long time getting there.
i'm letting go.
i may never truly fit in. but i ain't out of it anymore.
many thanks to: seises(debs, char, shar, han & miki), mich, cher, lisa, shannon, manda and lion dance.
lion dance people are nice. aside from the PT, i think i actually like it. cue surprise.
10 years ago, i...
-was in p1 honolulu
-was class monitor
-my best friend farrah and i ended up in different classes
-was a big girl, a class clown
-was chatty and loud
5 years ago, i..
-was in p6 gloriosa
-had been a prefect for 3 years(i honestly had an attitude problem)
-had found a bunch of close friends and we started this really dumb thing called The Writing Kit Club(we never wrote a thing)
-was rude but i never thought so
-farrah and i weren't close anymore
-went on the p6 trip on Superstar Virgo(WKC people had great fun! some mates bugged me to watch the sunrise at 4.30pm with me trying to convince them that the sun doesn't rise that early. woke at some unearthly hour and slept through the sunrise later)
-let my parents persuade me into st nix instead of nanyang
-went on the dream vacation to UK and had the best time of my life(it was a first for so many things which i won't ever forget)
-spent the best year of my life so far
3 years ago,
-i was in sec 2 unity
-jiayan became my lightbulb
-mich became my toufu over a dish of toufu on unit day
-2 unity won most united class, best web design and a whole string of stuff
-best class tshirt over 4 years
-NP was one main focus of life(what could beat it?i breathed NP)
-i got freaked to bits at STC 2001
2 years ago,
-sec 3 truth
-i started the year practically in depression. 3T was an overachieving class with me as rock bottom
-got sorely disappointed with one of the people who mattered most
-NP was driving me crazy
-i looked for my seniors and bugged them about promotion
-i became in charge of sec 2 squad(who took me on a wonderful journey)
-i went to new zealand(the trip rocked! i loved every minute of it)
1 year ago,
-lili became one of my closest friends
-i came to a shocking realisation that O's were actually heading my way
-i dropped chinese literature
-i passed out from NP knowing that i had no regrets being an NCO instead of OIC
-i bought a prom dress & attended grad night. some squadmates booked a hotel room and we had the most in-depth conversation in like forever
-i made the decision to go to NJ
so far this year,
-i've gone to NJ(and had a whirlwind 3 months there)
-i've tried and learnt(shall not elaborate)
-i've gotten results for O's which have made my parents extremely proud of me
-i've gone and made a dumb decision to move over to HC
-i've had one of the worst 3 weeks of my life
-i'm constantly moving forward and backward
-there's been the unfounded Seises
-i'm back to being class clown(a colder version)
