Saturday, May 29, 2004
I am 35% evil.
I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
i'm surprised that i'm not that evil. ahh. but what a weird criteria to gauge that.
i sort of went shopping today. bought this simmons back care mattress which came with this free neck care pillow coz my bed has been sinking for a while. and my dad got this 300 bucks pillow for his neck.
bought more playpen fence, apple treats and milk formula for baby. he ran away and wandered through the night. got real worried that he would fall sick. he looks fine now hopefully.
Friday, May 28, 2004
weiz: yesh! can jian fei. i remember losing 1.1kg within a week with all the JTC meetings we had. but i celebrated and gained everything back.
it's saturday tomorrow. aye. i don't have makeups tomorrow. and i'm really hoping there won't be LD. but you're never lucky twice. since wed didn't have it, i doubt i'll get lucky this time. i can only hope that coach doesn't come. i'm getting to really dislike him even though i've seen him only once.
left dance elective early at 1 today. hung around in orchard since everyone was still in school. jiachien joined me at 3 and angela and alina came at 6. daph came at 7. went browsing in HMV and came up with a number of stuff which i totally have to get.
bought LOTR: Two Towers extended vcd. (i have the non-extended version) the Corrs greatest hits and Avril's Under my Skin. also bought a black miniskirt from Zara.
spent a lot. i have to stop this. else i won't have any to spend during the long hols and that will be very sad.
my baby is adorable. turns over and lets you tickle his tummy. he loves it.
aye i shall get off. i have to be awake by 7 tomorrow. else my mom will scream at me to get food for baby. apparently no one else can do it.
Thursday, May 27, 2004
prong: sure. meet up again. why not? anyway. someone's turnign 17 next week. *hint* nah kidding.
cher: you make it seem as if you come over everyday when in actual fact you've only been over once. and he's confined to the yard unless we let him out and even then it's only the kitchen.
i've been trying to pretend that i don't have a cough. but i think i'm gonna fall sick. i've been losing my voice. this really sucks coz my voice is getting all grainy. and i need it for the audition. i mean, sure i won't get in and all. but still i want to sound better than say, william hung.
my baby's smelling good today(i cannot be bothered with the name chocky anymore. shall henceforth refer to him as baby unless otherwise stated). it's a crisp-apple-scented shampoo. of course i can't tell what the smell it. it's always printed on products how something can benefit you etc etc and smell like whatever whatever. he just smells good anyway. and he's been more quiet today. he can really start a ruckus(if it can be said this way).
went for dancesport today. it rocks! it's a little monotonous and repetitive. but for the 2-left-legged creeter called me, it works really well. i realise i love those old ballroom dancing and the latin stuff. it's repeated moves but really hip and quick. it's way more exciting than hiphop. learnt the salsa and cha-cha-cha today. gonna learn waltz tomorrow. and the costumes they wear are so cute. with large swishy skirts.
anyway. i ate a tablespoonful of nin jion pi pa gao thing for my throat. then i had this flashback. it was vdae this year at 7-eleven on a saturday at turf city this year. freak out. it's weird how your mind keeps playing tricks on you.
the book i'm reading now. up country. it's good. i little gruesome as the main character recalls all the battle scenes and describes in great detail as he tries to acheiev closure. else it's rather interesting. very thick volume.
and er.. mich? no matter what. we will catch confessions of a teengae drama queen together. we must k?
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
it's a jack russell. a male. and about 2 months old.he's adorable. awfully spoilt now. my dad came back today and he wasn't really in favour of the dog. we gave him a surprise. he doesn't agree with getting all happy about it and getting all weepy when he dies you see. and it really got me thinking that 8 years on, he'll be old and all, and i'll honestly be sad. already i find him such a lovable thing..it's just setting me for heartbreak or something. and he's so cute. just keeps me so happy looking at him.
film class ended yesterday. the teach likes the panning shot which i did. sort of favours it as his favourite shot. in fact he liked my group's video the most. he said that if we had any interest in doing short films as a hobby, we should go for it.
which brings me to the thought of 'what am i doing with the combination i'm doing?'
went with lynn and mich to the LOTR exhibition today since i had a day off. wow. we spent about 5 hours there including a teeny bit in the science centre. the place was freezing. i brought a jacket but i could still feel the cold through it. filming LOTR was massive. everythign had to be created. 2000 pairs of prosthetic feet for the 4 main hobbits. 3000 ears for the elves. and 18 months spent building the cite of edoras only to do a shooting of 8 days and have it torn down after. and loads more. it's crazy
and then i realise hat hey! this is what i want to do! act in a film. produce a film. so what's with my bio and chem and math and econs? what do i do with it? eat it? oh wait. i'm supposed to be a doc or a banker in future right? my sis wants to be an investment banker when she starts work. fine, she wants to be one. but whatever i want to do, i can't get it done here. not if i want the full deal. the real thing.
i have dance elective tomorrow and i have absolutely no interest in going. not one puny bit. i just want to stay home and read my book. or nap. there's somethign really wrong with my sleeping patterns. i read till 12 plus or 1 plus and the book which i've been on for 5-6 days and i'm only halfway there. then i wake at 6 plus, scram to school. stone. and sleep on the way back and almost always nearly missing my stop. day after day.
and the 6 of us are supposed to have a sleepover next week. it was all set and all. and now i have to cancel. coz my mom thinks it isn't proper to have sleepovers a people's houses. but it's 6 girls. the thing is, she'll allow if it's a class chalet where there's guys and she allowed 7 girls at a hotel room last year. this means the thing with cheryl and daphne won't work out either.
thsi hols had better be good. another one of those hols staying in 'sunny ole' singapore, meaning no break from reality. add on the horrible fact that we have to study for block tests. and i have make ups. the bad weather.
i realise that i'm making myself more pissed. i honestly just feel like using a big pair of scissors and cutting out some time period. stuffing it through a shredding machine. gathering the bits and blending it into pulp. urgh.
Monday, May 24, 2004
chocky is turning out to be a real amusement. my mom threw away his favourite raw hide stick coz it smelt like the white rabbit candy and was attracting ants. so he went and ate up this really large piece of hide which smells like plastic.
and i think he must be getting itchy coz he keeps gnawing at his thigh and scratching his ear. gets real pissed and starts chasing his tail in circles. then he got pissed with everything in the pen and started pouncing on his bones and plastic toy. one amusing chap.
i find him so adorable. but for now he thinks i always bring food so he begins to recognise my fingers as food. it doesn't hurt but it sort of shocks you. i wanna give him a shower but he's only supposed to bathe once a week. that's another 4 more days to last out. he's rather quiet for a dog. only barks in little sharp high barks. doesn't sound like the neighbours' enormous dogs. but i don't really like the barking. though when he's quiet i keep thinking that something's wrong.
i really love him. he's so cute and amusing. and those big brown eyes of his are so imploring. he loves his cushion which my mom found him. just lies down on it. and since we whacked him when he didn't pee in the right place, he knows that he must pee on the paper. yet he doesn't know that he should shit there, so he shits on the floor. and he gets really excited when anyone comes home so he jumps up and down till he starts peeing. that is a total laugh. lovable creeter.
today was the start of enrichment week. can't say much about film class except i didn't really enjoy it. i'm glad i learnt some of the terms and nomenclature but the day was really too boring. the instructor turned out to be a teacher and he planned too little activities for the day. we watch an hour of LOTR then we took that segment and dissected it by chopping up it up into bits and pausing all the time to look at the angle of film and the style and method and stuff. it was helluva boring. what we would have finished by 1, he took till 3. then he figured that we still had loads of time to kill. so he said, we'll run through LOTR again. but this time, in his own words, 'in a holistic manner, smoothly to see the run of the show'. it was not smooth or whatever. he paused all the time. the difference was that he screened it in chronological manner. what fun. could've screamed.
and i still have another day of that.
yay. feli's cooking bak kut teh for dinner. yum.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
i'm over you.
i am quite quite sure. it's just a realisation that i'll always be unnatural if i don't come to terms with it. and rather than lose a friend, i'll just choose the safe way.
i went for LD yesterday. we had to do this opening ceremony for the EDB talk. i wasn't really paying full attention so i banged the cymbals out a few times and the sneiors sensed it. whatever. then they announced the cca exco. i didn't make exco. for some odd reason i didn't feel a thing.
i remember crying like shit about my NP post a couple of years back. coz of all the effort i dumped in. but for this, i didn't feel a thing. partly coz i didn't really care. and it doesn't really matter. i know i'm disppointed sort of coz i just feel liek a loser. but when you haven't any previous experience, what can you ask for? i desperately need the points for the leadership component in PEARLS. but whatever. i'm just a 2nd intaker afterall.
i was hoping that s28 people will head out yesterday. but the thing is, everyne's busy now. only slacker me and slackest shannon can actually make it. but we have this handphone problem where we never seem to reach each other at the right time. i can miss 4 of his calls and he'll miss another couple of mine.
i went shopping last night but it wasn't a fulfulling shoppig experience. bah.
did watch troy on friday again. i feel sort of bad that i didn't want to watch a second time with debs and char and the rest but watched with mich. but either way one of us would have had to compromise coz it's either she rewatches van helsing or i watch troy again. she treated me to half the ticket and she paid for half my ice cream and my share of neoprint. i owe her a lot now.
then when i came home yesterday in the afternoon, my mom just asked out ofthe blue whether i wanted a dog. everyone gave the okay so we picked it up today. my cousin's dog had given birth and we decided to take one of the pups. it's a he. a hairy jack russell. called chocky. he's very cute and pretty. rather small. doesn't bite. very cuddly. brown with white. he needs some vaccines so he can't run out in case he catches diseases.
my aunt took my mom and i shopping for his stuff. got a fencing thingy so he can't run all over. bought a tray to keep his pee. some dog food. a dog dish. dog shampoo. flea medication. man it's ex. and we haven't even gotten his plastic bed. and there's a leash next time and some treats and snacks.
but cute guy he. very obedient. too obedient for me in fact. his sister is supposedly quitye pretty and rather spoilt and jealous and barky. sounds like my type. bet we'd have gotten along rather well. but chocky doesn't bark. but when you leave him alone for too long, he'll start doing little barks.
i don't exactly love him yet. my sis does and i think he likes my sis. but honestly he's very adorable. though dog smell isn't very nice. my shirt smells like him. reminds me of the cat pee when 2 unity played with kittens 3 years ago. so i went to the pet shop and smelt all the shampoo to find him one which smells good. it's crisp apple scent. i would say it smells great.
tomorrow i have film class. it's enrichment week now. no more school for real though i'll have make ups next week. i hope LD is off this wed. i really don't like the coach. he freaks me out.
off to play with chocky now.
