Thursday, May 20, 2004
this sounds very infringement of copyright law since it's like mich's blog. but i had to put this up. it's adorable.
If you live to be 100, I want to live to be 100 minus one day, so I never have to live without you. - winnie the pooh
isn't that sweet? of course, it's provided that there's even a significant other to grow old with in the first place.
i got my bangs trimmed. mom helped me with it. thanks mom! still remember those times when i was a kid and she trimmed them regularly for me coz i had this mushroom-style haircut.
i learnt today that there will be LOTS of LD sessions during the hols. thanks man. and that the dear coach(who ain't dear even one bit) will be really strict with the new exco. it just gets better. i feel like some idiot with a noose around my neck which is being pulled tighter every second. very bleak prospect indeed.
today HC held their council investiture. it was quite a solemn and sad thing. a lot of farewells said. it's different from sec school coz it's like in sec sch you have 4 years. here it's a one batch monopoly thign. so you pass out like immediately after a year. the feeling was really good. i had another of those 'why am i not there?' moments. like why did i transfer over else i would have ran for council. or why didn't i try running here? but the thing is, i know ultimately, i'll still have chosen not to run if i had come over and relived everything again. i wouldn't have had the heart to. but i also know that whatever decision i made, i'm gonna regret not choosing to be part of things here.
i haven't seen a single NJ soul this week. wish we could meet up. i think alina and i will be able to pull a nice shopping spree. afterall she's been so on about makeovers or late. we'd do good on a talk and crap and shop day.
04s71 has already started to plan a june chalet. and this group of 6 friends including me, we're gonna pull of a sleepover. with all these planned, is 04s28 thinking of arranging anything? we really should meet up. afterall, it's been so long. almost 9 weeks now.
dinner.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
mich: you gbook still isn't there? as in i can't see anything! good fer ya that you're buying a skirt. i'm getting desperate about shopping. i madly need to shop. i should start a whole list of what i intend to buy. and GSS is coming! just gives you more reason to!
i screwed bio SPA. totally. they printed a WHOLE page of lines and i filled up 2. i didn't have time to finish the stupid experiment. so now i'll hit a level 4 at max. and this is skill B. i's supposed to be the easy thing. what am i gonna do when i do skill A. or D? the t-test will just kill you. argh. i wish i could just blame the experiment. stupid enzyme, stupid potato extract. stupid stupid. it's the absolute case of practical gone wrong.
i'm evil. to the bone. i ended at 1.30pm today since it's CCA day and elva(we call her that coz she's call xiao ya ying) let us off early. i'm supposed to be at lion dance. even this late i think they prolly ended a short while ago. but i decided to give it a miss. so i just ponned. it's a big deal for soemone who has never ponned NP before.
the thing is, those in LD love LD. they like eat sleep and breathe LD. so i don't. i could do quite well without it. coz it has never really been 'me'. what i did realise is how much time you can actually have on your hands without this thing called CCA. LD really gobbles up your hours. and the members don't care coz they love it. it's at least 2x a week. and they don't ever fix a time, it varies every week and they only write the start time on the board. you just come and sit through the whole thing. it can be anything between 2 and 5 hours. do you know how much time that is? it's a lot. it also means i can NEVER figure what time i'll end. so i can't ever fix anything definite after LD. it just pisses me off. so i told them during the election inetrview that they could do something like that.
even if they have to print the bare numbers and say that it lasts forever, then so be it. at least i know i still have life after forever.
so sitting at home, i napped for 2 hours. and i picked up a new book. it really disturbs me that i can read for about 30-45 minutes and i fall asleep. i mean, i've never been like that before. i used to read 5 hours at a shot. or 3 at least. and now i just sleep whenever i pick up a book. i don't even want to read some books. but honestly there's a load of difference between getting home early and staying out late. like 5 hours. and it feels super good.
oh. and i think i haven't mentioned this before. i really loathe the lecture-tutorial system. maybe it is just me who's repeatedly falling asleep. but i alos think that the teaching thing in sec schools helps you understand better coz it's more personal. tutors don't teach, lecturers do. and tutors just go through stuff with you which you won't even do when you don't learn. i used to be able to handle all the tests as long as the teacher taught coz i understood. now i'm just blank? it's information overload + not-good teaching method.
now to make a list of what i wanna buy.
1. sneakers.
2. tennis shoes.
3. running shoes.
4. 5 pairs of sandals.(it's not a random number. 3 to replace those which don't work out very well and two more flat ones)
5. exercise mat.
6. b*****
7. a couple of skirts.
8. black pants.
9. loafers.
10. nice tanks.
11. formal stuff since i don't have 'em.
12. 'scent of love' soundtrack.
13. latest avril album.
14. vonda shephard cds (there are at least 4)
15. penny dai latest hits album.
16. silberberg chem (i'm getting desperate)
17. sloman's econs (see above)
18. black eyed peas album.
19. dido's first album.
20. troy vcd.
21. a set of english tv programme vcds (i have movie ones and chinese tv series one. but no english)
22. bookshelf (i still haven't got one)
23. cd rack (see above)
24. a new bed (mine's sinking due to weight overload: me)
25. R+J poster
26. hector poster (my hero)
27. a couple of dresses (they are different from skirts)
28. schoolbag(i still ahevn't gotten one)
29. tote schoolbag (just for other days)
30. nice shopping bag x2 (shopping is a pastime and you have to carry nice stuff to pastimes)
31. new swimming costume (i'm not going for HC PE swimming in that thing which makes me look humongous)
32. bodyshop stuff. (they just look pretty)
33. LOTR exhibition tix.
34. there's no need to go on. it won't end. offhand i can come up with 33 items. if i thought about it, i'll have 300.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
sigh. didn't read any ofthe juniors blogs today. feeling guilty about that. but i needa rush like mad.
celebrating my bdae? ooh. yippee! haha. *cue singing: i am sixteen going on seventeen...*
i have chronic brain dysfunction. i definitely do. no question about it. it's one thing that i'm not doing work or not studying. but it's another thing when i forget.
i slept through the math talk today. totally. it's bad of me.
and i said stuff like 'freaked out' and 'jio' during the GP presentation. mrs tan looked at me like i had 3 heads.
things are definitely getting out of hand when you make wild guesses and get the answers right and try your hand at it and get them wrong. i failed another chem test today. (not surprising since i didn't study)
i passed bio. it's not an O. i got 18/30. after reading only 13 out of like 150 pages of notes with like font size puny, i got that. it is shocking. and some studied their butt off and got less. though plenty got more. the fact is. i passed. it's rather amusing.
here's the bombshell. i forogt that i have bio SPA tomorrow. the real thing. the it's counted for A levels thing. i FORGOT. that's why i can't read blogs. what the hell am i even doing here?
my conscience has disintegrated. completely. that's why i can't remember that there is stuff which i need to do.
on a light note. the J2s are gonna support the b-ball match tomorrow. so if there's gonna be no one conducting LD traning tomorrow, i may get the day off early!
and damien gave in. whee! his bdae is 1sy june and mine's 3rd. there has to be a bio make up tutorial and we were bickering over which day to fix it on. 1st or 3rd. and neither wanted it on their respective days. finally, later this afternoon, he just said it would be fine if we had it on 1st. very nice of him. though that day is already half booked by make ups so it'll most prolly be 3rd anyway. but that's when the word pon comes in handy.
right. i must go. bio SPA needs and deserves just that wee bit of attention.
Monday, May 17, 2004
mich: ohmigod. you are kidding? your school is at KAP? at like king albert park? really? that's what happens when you have a nitwit for a friend who has no idea what exists beyond whatever. goodie. then we can meet like everyday. we can have healthy functional relationships. i'm very interested *gives lecherous grin*. ha. and about your blog. please fix your gbook. it was one thing when i couldn't sign properly, it's anotehr when i'm permanently using this to launch public gbook entries. ha. and whatever you're going through. it is perfectly normal. coz i have that too. well, unless i'm abnormal(or subnormal as the econs text is inclined to write). the skirt isn't short. it's very long actually. comparatively. it's just really translucent with a very short lining so it pretty much means the ame thing.
right. now to blog for real. i'm talking funny coz i just had 3 episodes dosage of gilmore. gosh i love that show. i don't always think so. but then i always do
after i watch it. i love the way it's portrayed. it's totally clean and yet ever as entertaining. if only all mother-daughter relationships are that way, then we wouldn't have juvenile delinquency caused by conduct disorder linked to lack of communication between the teens and their parents.
sorry just had to add that. i have to sound like i care about PW. honestly i don't give a hoot. but sadly, when you don't care, it also means you fail.
i was back very early today. so early it feels like a sunday. i end classes officially at 2.40pm on mondays. but in all the 9 mondays i've experienced here at HC. i have never and i mean never ever come back on mondays earlier than 6. i just never wanted to. else my mom will think i end very early, which is very true and she'll expect me home early and if i go out gallivanting(as grown ups like to say) then i'll need to explain. so usually i just hang with my class ahving lunch till alina finishes and we head back together or stone in NJ or i watch a match or something.
back to the point. for those who are unprepared, it should be a relatively long entry. her higness is in a pretty good mood today.
i could have slapped myself. i sat at the thomson bustop waiting to change a 163. and what happened? i was so lost in thoughts. or should i say daydreaming. or fixing mind matters that the bus passed me by. i could have hailed it at the last minute but i was far to embarrassed to. not that i could suffer any more humiliation considering that there was no one else at the stop hence missing the bus. wasted a good twenty minutes waiting for the 855(people will wonder what i define as wasting time coz i just sit and while away the time just as well). nearly missed my stop coz i feel asleep on the bus and had my head nodding everywhere. everyone saw. mortification rules my life. thank goodness when you are asleep you don't care.
took a short nap at home, showered a cold shower. the weather cannot warrant anything else. and watched tv all the way. there's Friends later! *cue screaming* ahh! good tv. good tv!
okay. now let's get jolted back to reality. PW. we are honestly not getting anywhere. we've handed in our proposal. got rejected(this is so familiar). and frankly, we just don't want to get started. it's quite a mountain of a task. a Herculean task as a matter of fact. oh. i found this site which says a lot on Greek mythology and it's fascinating. all the stories and legends are way cool. it's under my links there now.
it's interesting how mao can get away not doing anything really. partly coz he's the only guy and a funny one at that. so he just talks and we laugh and somehow sort of forget that he has said his comp has crashed just about a million and one times and cannot do any work. geez. but admittedly, he does make pw more interesting. he's quiet related to delinquents you can say, so he tells stories about them.
oh. and today. i got back my GP essay. i failed. just like all my other tests and 4 core. i failed. it's quite encouraging really. and i'm slowly slipping into this pattern of failing everything. it's like grade O is the new 'in' thing. frankly, it sucks. english was my best subject, aside from hoem ec and D&T which don't exactly count. and here i am, flunking GP which is rather similar. and then i got back the chem test which i failed too. very good for a morale boost.
aside from that. life has been pathetically boring. thankfully, i have just 4 days of school left. or five, after you add the saturday. and maybe a few more if you count make ups. i can scarcely wait for next week. it's elective week and i hoping and hoping it's gonna be fun.
school's turning out sucky. especially when you see thsi same tecaher 11 periods a week. 3 econs tutorial, 3 PW periods, 1 CAP and now, i think 4 econs lect periods. i'm gonna see her again tomorrow. *cue faint*
must be optimistic. there's Friends later!
(pan out....i'll be there for you...coz you're there for me too....)
