i wanted to go out with my sis today but she wasn't free so i've basically be lazing around. read a little cold mountain and trust me, you'll like the movie more. the book is a dry narrative which portrays the characters a little differently. like inman is portaryed to be weaker with something of a less love for ada. and ada is portaryed to be pathetic and not willing to fend for herself instead of unable to.

i kept to my word. i told myself that i'll sleep at 12 last night and wake at 11 this morning. seriously i actually doubted that i'll keep to it and sleep so many hours. i slept at 1am and wole at 11.50. it was great. sleeping so many hours. i even took a one-hour nap a while an hour ago. really short on sleep coz i keep falling asleep during dinner. the most interesting part is that i didn't even wake up with teh sunlight streaming through the day curtains and shining right on to my face.

went out with michelle again after school yesterday. i wanted to shop so we walked around a little. i'm trying to find a denim mini which will fit me, and i was despearte to just buy something. very bad habit. but i just can seem to find anything which will actually fit me. i honestly can do without all those inches. we sat at orange julius and i ate again.

yesterday's math test was a total sucker. i mean, i kinda expected myself to fail even before i took the test, but i didn't expect it to be that bad. so bad that i'll prolly get 3 marks outta 25. i just couldn't do anything or got all weird answers. actually if i even get 3 marks, i'd say mr heng was lenient.
and they sprang a surprise chem quiz on us. and my my, it wasn't too great. i don't think i'll fail, but i definitely don't expect to ace it either.

and then of course, there's me always doing stupid things. i don't think i ever did as many stupid things added together in sec school. i guess it's just that when you're in a mixed school, the number of crazy things which can possibly be done just increases tremendously.
case #1: i got daph to buy me ritz biscuits coz i needed to finish hoemwork and i went to the library. daph had to pass the food to leelee coz she isn't in my chinese class. just happens that arty's home room is around the same place as my chinese class except that it's 2 floors below. so i saw daph passing my ritz to leelee so i stretched out my hand and went 'i want my ritz!'. problem was, arty just happened to walk out of the toilet then and i wasn't exactly in the most flattering position, not to mention rather comical, like i was stretching out my hand tot him or something. urgh.
case #2: i was heading down to orchard and just so happened that jonathan my classmate was too. we got on the buus and were talking. lisa got on one stop later. and she's really into scandals. she came on and saw both of us. made eye contact woith me and make hand sings which supposed to mean that we're together or something. oh please. i faked this bewildered expression thing, pretending that i had no idea. afterall, jonathan is nice and all that. but he's too guai. and doesn't ever do anything surprising. and you can't ike tease him or something. so he ain't much fun.
what's up with my class people?

and i really need to go out. i have this urge to spend alot. and i can understand how come my new allowance isn't working out. i'm very certain that i didn't spend much this month and yet i seem to have just enough to spare. why? i'm supposed to have lots of savings but this isn't working.

i'm bored dead. i have to think of something to do or i'll start eating!

i have to make it really snappy. sheryl's waiting for me to go cycling. i'm really tired now, had this amzaingly long and draggy day till 5, before pulling myself home. really shouldn't be cycling. but i gather that exercise makes you awake and that's what i need now. have lots of work to do and i can't afford to sleep.

aside from crappy lessons, i've had crappy lessons. starting yesterday i've taken the friggin' bus to school. overslept like shit today so i rushed to the bus stop. took 163 instead of the usual 855 which i was advised to take. got off a stop too early. so i had to walk through some bushes and undergrowth to get to the bus stop to change a bus. it was dark and i was friggin' scared.
now that i come to school really early, i keep running into kim. that's bad, coz i'm kinda avoding him now. not to mention that i don't think he even sees me though we're like practically next to each other. mutual avoiding i think. i hope that BK isn't saying anything about me.
i'm thinking of going to watch talentime. okay. face it. i kinda wanna watch it coz he's performing. no scratch it. i wouldn't even watch if he weren't performing. okay but that doesn't mean that i'm still all that crazed. honest. just a wee bit. a really tiny bit.

i met mich yesterday after school and we watched Cold Mountain! to everyone, you have got to catch it. agreeably, it ain't LOTR whopper majestic, but it's got depth, it ain't no chick flick. and it's got history to learn. nicole kidman and renee zellweger have great acting. i haven't read the book, still stuck on the first pathetic chapter, but reading their facial expressions reveals enough of what is to come. though the ending is sad, it's still worth it. the language is kinda hard to grasp coz of their southern drawl and breathy speaking, but it's real cool.

of course, today was plain nasty. thursdays are the absolute worst. and of course, we have good days and bad days. some times we get good friend days, and good work days and then there are the bad friend days and bad work days. today was a good-friend and bad-work day i guess. haha. but the work was eewl. we had bio lecture, chem pract, math tutorial, bio tutorial, econs tutorial, GP and PE. now really bad combination. we get lectures tomorrow though, so i'm much happier. and just thinking that i have a weekend ahead really perks me up.

i shall not think about next week yet. i must not. though, i can worry about it.

today's lessons were horrid. i mean. i used to like tuesdays. coz they were lecture days and i'd sit and face the opposite direction and stare.
but now that i'm down to real studying. i can understand why people would glance elsewhere. honest. my lecturers are too lame for words. my bio tutorial teach says, "hey stanley, we would like to consult you about this question knowing that you have great under-stan-ding." *rolls eyes*
like please. and the new maths lecturer is blah.

i have loads of work due by tomorrow. i would like to pon tomorrow, afterall, i have to take bus starting tomorrow. if not for the fact that if i miss bio pract i have to make it up, i will. bio tutorial is crap. and chem tutorial is...i missed 2 chem lects coz i didn't feel like it. and now i'm lost, floating amidst stoichometry and volumetric analysis.

i desperately need to go out. far east has lots of stuff, i just never realised it. and i still have to spend the voucher. i'll kill myself if the thing expired and i didn't buy anything.

right. i will go. i have lots of bio to do. and all by tomorrow.

mondays are loathe-worthy. of course, thursdays are hate-worthy.
i loathe bio lecture and tutorial days.

of the previous list which i'm trying to keep to, i haven't touched math and made a complete fool of myself during math lesson again. did not listen to mr sigh. when i tried, i just fell asleep. i did not read mags during GP, i just stoned.

speaking of GP, our class looked so dead, the teach let us off one hour early(we have a two-hour GP lesson from 3-5 in the afternoon). so we were let off, but my friend and i are slo-mos in moving and soon, the teacher and us got involved in a conversation involving school matters. initially, we were replying and chatting amiably(though our word volume was very much less). then khairul came in and answered somewhat. but after a while, we realised that hey! she wasn't gonna stop. really. and she went on for 20 minutes, we us just standing there and stoning. haha.

i stop going out of my way to look at kim. and i really that in doing so, i don't get to see him anymore. that's like how different we are. from timetables, to habits and interests. what was i thinking?

i have loads of homework to go. and i have to get started. pissing ms tan, our econs teach is a really bad idea. and my chinese compo is way overdue.

yurps. i'm blogging again.

way to go CCC! keep it up!

and hey! family mini-reunion was actually successful. i know this sounds lame. but i exepcted some boring thing. but knowing it's a family dinner, you don't usually set high standards for it. and anyway, having expectations only seeks to make you disappointed eventually. ya know.

and guess what? i'm back to my usual chirpy self. whee! i think i can not care too. just keep it up. and engross myself in the right things of JC.
i shall look forward to a good haircut at the end of the week. and maybe highlights(my parents will be away, so they can't screw me if i've already gotten them!)
and of course, not pissing my econs tutor off. i'll try to be good and do my math for mr heng(he's a nice teach), and try to listen to mr sigh in chem(he goes round correcting grammatical errors)
and not read mags in GP.
as for bio. i'll try not to sleep in davidson's class.
now all these is more than i can handle.

most of all, i'll try to be nice and civil to BK. if i'm all kiddish about it. and petty and dumb, then i'm worse than a lowlife. i shall be magnanimous. (that's quite a mouthful!)
ooh. and i shall go to the library to do homework. and not look over the page and stare at him or something.

i am a happy person! honest.
i haven't felt this free in years. and no joke there. coz somehow my thoughts have been occupied by someone. always.

and to you guys...
i love you. always. thanks, for acting on the stage of my play, for singing a verse and a chorus with me, for being part of my life. ilu~

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