Saturday, January 03, 2004
sec 2/3s: the drills was great. as you know, i watched it 4 times! so proud. ahh! 8 of you guys in drills com! i tried the food can't say much about it. but jia you kae! for everything! i'll try to make it back for campfire but the JC may have stuff on. study hard too and take it easy on yourself for sec 3. you don't want a nervous breakdown. i'll be rooting for you all!
i went back to st nix today for their cca fair. i get this feeling that we are losing some enthusiasm. the cca fairs are getting deader year after year. but i loved the drills. watched the same thing four times. the salute's so cool and the rifle drills in the beginning is really nice.
went to mos for lunch with mich and caught Mona Lisa Smile with her. so basically had a pretty okay day.
yesterday at NJ was a tad boring for the registration part. but the mass dance is fun except i've got 2 left feet. the cheers are quiet funny.
when i say NJ you say oh!
NJ oh!(x2)
when i say NJ you say yeah!
NJ yeah!(x2)
when i say NJ you say aw!
NJ aw!(x2)
Glory glory glory NJ!(x3)
(boys)and the girls keep screaming
(girls)more, more, more!
how's that for a cheer?
i'll know my class/OG on mon. i'm looking forward to whatever they have in store for us, though i'm a little pensive. what if i don't fit in? i want to stay. i really hope i do.
have chosen my subject combination. S7. i'm taking Bio, Chem, Econs, Maths C, General Paper and Chinese AO if i get my choice.
oh and one more thing. sec 2/3s, do well for higher chinese. you don't want to take chinese again like me.
Thursday, January 01, 2004
1. What did you do in 2003 that you've never done before?
parasailing.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i kept a few but i can't remember them quite to well now.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
my uncle's wife.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
nope.
5. What countries did you visit?
Vietnam.
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
Love. will and energy to make things happen.
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
i dunno i guess. nothing worth remembering specially.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
coming fifth in english for prelims. basically getting better english results
9. What was your biggest failure?
i said no to the movie.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
had tonsilitis twice.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
pearl harbor dvd? white beaded sandals? fond hugs skirt? seriously i have no idea. perhaps the best thing wasn't bought with money.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
mine. my mood swings are so very Viking. it amazes me.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
no one's and everyones'
14. Where did most of your money go?
Books, audio stuff, clothes.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
end of exams.
16. What song will always remind you of 2003?
souriez.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
Sadder. you can't survive 16 without feeling sad.
ii. thinner or fatter?
fatter. i plonked on 4kg in the beginning and it hasn't come off yet.
iii. richer or poorer?
poorer. on shopping with no subsidy, i've spent loads. on certain months, incurring expenditure of 300 bucks.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
daring myself
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
procrastinating.
20. How did you spend Christmas?
some family gathering.
21. Did you fall in love in 2003?
technically no.
22. How many one-night stands?
nada.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
survivor, friends, american idol 2.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no. i just disliked her more.
25. What was the best book you read?
Lord of the Rings
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Avalon.
27. What did you want and get?
speak to someone.
28. What did you want and not get?
a lot of stuff. and most can't be bought.
29. What was your favorite film this year?
love actually and RotK
30. What did you do on your birthday?
stayed in school and gloated when the scholars had c.lit test.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
going out when i got asked out for a movie before prelims.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
more skirts. less berms. a little of everything and more of me.
33. What kept you sane?
tea, tv and sleep.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Josh Daniel Hartnett
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
dunno.
36. Who did you miss?
a bunch of somebodies.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
new person? daryl from church.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003:
don't look for blessings. you don't find them. they find you.
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
2003 is officially over. and it shall be confined to another space of memory.
it's been a year of pain, of tears, crappy scoldings, overwhelming responsibility and speedy growing-up. it's been about looking for understanding and getting misunderstood, looking for forgiveness and not finding it. it's been about expecting and having things unfulfilled.
it's also been about being loved when i least expect it, being appreciated when sometimes i thought it wasn't worth it(thanks sec 2s, it's worth it), about being blessed when i thought all doors were closed.
most of all...it's been about waiting and dreaming and hoping...and getting crushed.
i can't remember last year's new year resolutions. but here they are from my diary.
1.i want to be happy. God knows how long it's been since i've been turly happy. i made that resolution 2 yrs ago and it didn't work out. the last year was a nightmare. so i'm kinda hoping for a dream come true.
2.i want to improve significantly in my studies. this year is a bloody important year. if i don't do well. i'm dead.
3.i want to be more participative in my class. last year was spent focusing on my CCA. this time, more class spirit.
4.i want to be more understanding towards my parents and my sister. my parents have so much on their minds. the least i could do is not add to them. and without my sis around, i've got to watch out and take care of them too.
5. i want to commit my self to things. no more running away and giving excuses. i have to be there and i will help out.
6. i want to stop regretting and start making fast decisions instead of letting them slip by. just because i don't dare to.
7.i want to improve my physical stamina and lose some inches. i'm pretty fine actually. except that i used to be better. and it's time i start.
8.i want to love and be loved in return.i guess i'm missing on that. it means so much to me and yet i don't care enough.
9. i'm gonna keep jy, cher and val as my bestest friends around. and nothing's gonna change that. hear me?
10. i want to excel in my CCA.if u know me, u should know why.
looking back, i believe i've actually fulfilled some of them, though in the course of te year, i may have forgotten which direction i was heading in. it's been hard, coz things don't stay the way they are, it just keeps changing and wham! it just don't work out. but i've made new close friends like mich and i'm happy for that.
i'm setting new ones.
1. i am going to be outstanding.
2. i am going to live for love, for friends, for loved ones and family.
3. i am going to live for myself.
4. i am going to stop waiting.
5. i am going to be happy.
and so here we are.
adieu 2003.
hello 2004!
come get me.
it's going to be a happening year.
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
survivor, day 1:
this is so not working. nope, i didn't get voted off though i really think that that's a good idea. here we are, 3 of us(mom, sis and me) playing this game to last out till my maid comes back...except, it's no game.
i'm officially in charge of laundry, and each of us does the ironing. my sis and i rotate to cook the meals. whoever cooks washes up.
not to mention my mom decided that she wanted towash her king-sized sheets today so that's another extra load of laundry to hang and prolly i'll get stuck ironing.
so maybe i sound like a spoiled brat and all i've ever ironed was my dad's hankies(c'mon! they are the mose regular-shaped things. bedsheets don't count. those are way larger). but really, you don't need to outlast on pearl islands coz this is way harder. you have to pretend you actually like doing it and not grate on each others nerves. how's that?
it's still day one afterall. there are about 14 days to go.
oh..did i mention? i'm cooking tonight. what's on the menu? steamed fish.(easier on the wok, easier on the stomach and of course, easier on the washing.
and so, i ended up going out today. coz else, i'll have to cook my own lunch. my mom but bedsheets(doesn't this ound familiar?) and we bought a bunch of branded greens(red coral lettuce, western spinach, butterhead lettuce). it's for the salad for the countdown dinner party my mom's hosting. honestly, the brand of the spinach is quite bad(come on, i mean sprout-man?) but the normal lettuce which we eat has a really nice name. it's called iceberg lettuce. that's nice and cool sounding right?(in more ways than one)
i'm finally making some progress on the chinese novel i'm writing. so maybe i'm still stuck on the prologue, but at least i have more than 3 sentences written. still reading nancy drew. the plots are quite fun actually. but naturally i daren't carry it about with me.
sigh...tomorrow's going to be a long long day...
Sunday, December 28, 2003
my sis is going to stay at the hostel. i'm happy. that's bad of me to say but spending some time with her, she's different from before. more authorative and dictatorish. she hates it when i break promises but she does it herself. i guess i'll be better of with some distance apart.
my maid went back on home leave today. it's only the first day and i don't think i can last too long. everybody's talking and not a single person is listening or doing anything.
i'm not looking forward to countdown.
school's starting soon. i dunno. i just feel that i never really felt the hols and it's being taken away now. i don't know how i'll feel about it. but sems like NJ is overrun with st nix girls or something and i'm not sure i want that. i mean you go to JC to get away from sec school right? ut's about a change in environment, a change in people and a change in life. not about a larger st nix or something.
but i'll be missing litebulb and mich...
