Saturday, November 01, 2003
yippee! tomorrow's the O's! don't i sound excited?
i think i'm only excited about the end but everything has to come to pass if the end is to come right?
must keep looking forward to what's ahead. shall go out on massive shopping. and shall go out with sec 2s to watch movie! who's keen?
some random stuff to note. i just had an overdose of TV. currently reeling from the high. it's like O's time and i just went and watched 160 minutes of huan zhu ge ge(i'm nuts). all my bad habits keep popping up during exam periods. under normal circumstances, i don't desire to watch it half as much. not to mention i've seen HZGG at least 5 times, no make it 6.
i've finally finished reading SS. after being at it for 5 days. and studying nothing else on top of that(not a wise move huh?) had no choice. else i'll never finish. anyhow, i can't seem to remember much of what i learnt. i know like everyone else is memorising and stuff, but i just can't. so i can just read.
and all your jaws can just drop coz i'm being honest. i sincerely haven't started on chinese, physics, chem and bio. completely. have to start. hoping to start like on tuesday maybe.
anyway, i was at mass today. didn't really understand the homily and 1st and 2nd readings. but was praying after communion(i pray unusually long when exams are around), and this 2 lines of hymn lyrics just popped into my brain,"we will run and not grow weary, for our God will be our strength. and we will fly like the eagle, we will rise again" so i was praying for strength. me being restless and irascible and fed up with it all.
the interesting part is, the thanksgiving hymn immediately after was 'we will rise again', the exact same hymn which i had just thought of. and the hymn book has 800-900 hymns, the probability that i hit on the right hymn, is so small.
so, i'm gonna have to trudge on, plodding through the snow. thankfully, i've been having several of these incidences happening.
but my sleep has been affected. been having insomnia for 3 consecutive nights. last night, after tossing for a comparatively short while, i finally fell asleep. and had a nice rest(with no horrid dreams). considering 3 different occasions, i've dreamt about li nanxing(eewl!), chem pract exam(aahh!), and some other horrid thing. i must get off.
ooh. forgot. survivor was great. but i can't stand the OUTCASTES. go rupert! go christa!
smile. keep the faith and keep on. for there is a God.
Thursday, October 30, 2003
my stupidity amazes me.
really. of all times, i choose to screw my O's.
i even read the question wrongly. i read hydrochloric acid as sulphuric acid and calculated the whole thing wrong.
stupidity becomes me.
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
who would have ever thought that i would look at the textbook and pass and pick up math paper 1 to do?
been there, done that.
let's just say i've no inetntion of making that a habitual practice.
but while the ss textbooks and geog and bio texts continue to bore me, i should hope that perhaps my math would improve.
any hope of that?
i guess not. coz i only do paper 1 E maths.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
sorry cher. we got chopsticks. i'm sad. coz chopsticks are inedible.
told jy about the stupid dream. and she heard it as i dreamt i was dancing. so she didn't have much of a reaction. but when she heard li nanxing. she laughed and laughed and wouldn't stop.
i could just kill myself for today's pract. i got the right answer. then i cancelled it and wrote something else. somebody please bang me on the head. no. forget it, can't afford to lose anymore brain cells.
whee! after O's, i'm gonna redecorate my room. and go kite-flying. and shopping. and i can read Living History. i have to keep positive.
Sunday, October 26, 2003
can't i go away?
my dad's flying to shanghai tomorrow.
my parents don't want me to watch anymore serials coz it'll distract me(i'm not heeding it)
there's the wedding dinner tonight and i wish i didn't have to go.
i think that the idea of rotting and becoming a fossil fuel is considerable.
i believe in dreams.
had a totally dumb dream last night. so i shan't tell.
they say that dreams are a reflection of what you want in your waking life. i can't exactly believe my dream. but after analyzing it today(when i should have been studying) i've decided that it's partially right.
i need to lose 5-6kg desperately. or grow taller to even out the weight.
i'm actually looking forward to going to vietnam. afterall, it's not staying here.
i'm supposed to wear a black dress tonight. and i look stupid.
i'm 16. but i think i'm going to look 30.
i think i'm going crazy. yeah. that's quite romantic ain't it?
