Saturday, October 18, 2003
my cousin's very cute. chubby cheeks and thighs. sigh. how i wish i were a baby. can be fat and not worry, and there's no O's too!
feel seriously under-accomplished. studying really puts you to sleep. dunno how mich does it, but i feel anything but motivated. at least i go to my room and study. but just can't focus. so can't get much done.
i spent 3 hours studying 10 pages of geog today coz i couldn't concentrate. what lousy productivity rate! urgh.
Thursday, October 16, 2003
grrr. i'm growl-chy today. coz i sorta just woke up. slept to relief a headache and hopefully yesterday's neckache. well, the headache's gone, but the neckache's plaguing me worse than ever.
the nominations for the awards were up today. i can't say i totally agree with peiwen's nomination but nevermind. jas.q. really deserves the all-round excellence award. she's really cool. i'm in for good service. but anyway, all this ain't confirmed.
saw ms ng talking with daph, min and lynn. probably asking them to become CIs or STC instructors. but that's just my guess. as for me, i'll just go pottering after my own stuff. it's time to focus on passions.
you know. we used to all walked the same broad, tarred road. then came the forks in them. and we've all began trekking on different paths, some on the road less taken. i guess ultimately, we're all heading for the same destination, just the length and the terrain of the journey. heex. i may just end up on the tufts of grass and not a path at all.
but more than that, it's finding a life-long friend who'll walk with you.
today was rather funny. they announced this morn that they are not checking the results today. everyone was groaning. like my class people, no one really wanted to come, coz it's chinese and math. but coz of the grades, they came and you can imagine them, all saying, can we just go back now?
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
weiz: i loved the mail you sent about the 80's babies. gosh it's really a lost civilisation huh?
i'm not on cloud 9. but i'm suitably satisfied. i finally got started on a teensy bit of work today, so my conscience ain't pricking so bad. my dad was home the WHOLE day. so i had to do work. did some chinese, sme math, some chem. really little if you loo at it. but at least i did without much distraction.
went to Longhouse for lunch. had scrumptious prawn noodles AND char kway teow. yum.
then went back and did a short while of work and slept. thankfully it wasn't 4 hours. just 1 1/2hr. and now both my parents are out for farewell dinners(one's resigning, one's changing jobs) so i'm online and later i'm going to watch HZGG 3. goodness knows why i'm watching when it is really substandard. it's awful really. but there's really nothing left to watch and i so need my daily dosage of tv. yesterday i was so bored i had to watch Phua Chu Kang and Living with Lydia. i haven't touched that in how many aeons.
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
dreams take you higher. they lift you up. but the fall then becomes more painful.
you know, the saying, don't make promises you can't keep. i hate to say this, but i guess i'm really going to vietnam. i'm just so sad. i had plans to go as faraway for as long as possible.
went to HMV to search for Anne of Green Gables. i really regret not buying it the last time. coz this round, it's out of stock. it's still 89 bucks. but i'm prepared to fork it out. reserved it. will go down and collect it in 2 weeks time.
Monday, October 13, 2003
if someone asks me what i did this past weekend, i'll reply, i slept late, at 12am coz i was singing karaoke.
if someone asks me what i did today, i'll reply, i took a 4-hour nap. no joke in any of the above statements.
i haven't napped 4 hours straight in a long while. not this year even, perhaps. and honestly, i'm not doing any work. i didn't like it when my parents started staying home coz i knew i wouldn't be able to watch as much tv(i do it when they are out) and read. but secretly, i was happy, coz i thought, like hey! at least i'm getting work done right? well, that's all bullshit. coz i watch just as much, or more, just pick the times when they're are out the house.
was gushing over Anne with Lynn today. she's watched the show! i've found a 'kindred spirit' and we're all from 'the race of Anne(Joseph)'. i'm more than determined to buy it now. even though i think HMV at Heeren no longer holds it, i'm still going to have to try.
i tried to comvince my mom to let me miss school today. i just didn't see the need. though i'm hearty thankful that i didn't, coz there was really quite a lot of important stuff i'd miss if i didn't attend. though i did come really close to that. my mom had finally agreed this morning. but instead i just sat on the bed and thought and thought, and finally decided that i should go after all. i know, i must be hearty stupid too.
Sunday, October 12, 2003
no cher. if i were really born in another place and time, i'll still live. coz i'd rather ride a horse than drive a car. rather signal with a candle than use the phone(i think!), rather frollick in the fields and woods than play ball. aye aye. the grass is greener on the other side eh?
studies are not coming on really well. scratch that, they're not coming on at all.
anyway, i'm just thinking that i'm totally lame. last time i tried to download a cantonese song, but since it's in cantonese, the song title appeared in symbols so i didn't know which was which. i downloaded all and the last song was the right one.
this time, i'm trying to locate this chinese serial. and also find out the actress's name, coz she looks awful sweet. so i went to this vcd sight and sifted through the whole catalogue of vcd titles(it's uncountable) and i still haven't found it. and i really don't know how else i can go about tracking it.
today's just like saturday. didn't go to church coz i went yesterday. cancelled tuition coz there's some dinner on later. so basically stayed home. i love staying put and watching the world go by. it's kind of monotonous, but you get engaged with your own thoughts and it's awful pleasant, but i love spice too.
which reminds me, did anyone read the cover page story of The New Paper? gosh it's sick.
kae. have to get going.
