Friday, October 10, 2003
mich: thanks much gurl. really. it's cool. and it's up so fast. i'm real glad i can post again. as for your gbook, i've pretty much given up signing it. i'm glad you want to try jc. live for yourself kae? it pays to be selfish sometimes.
i've been reading last night and this morning. Anne as mentioned. and watched survivor last night, i'm sad Drake didn't win. and now Rupert is stuck on the other tribe. it's awful worrying coz he's in this precarious position.
i am utterly convinced just the same degree as yesterday. last night, i was certain i was meant to be born many a time back. and today i'm downright sure that i'm a hopeless romantic. reading Anne(for like the 7th time or something) just brings back bliss. i love books which bring life. stuff like Just Between Us are dry. but this, is just plain beautiful. i really like Gilbert Blythe. he and Anne just make the bestest couple. it's times like those when i read and i think that i'll gladly retire now and live on a farm for the rest of my life. dreamy on Prince Edward Island or anywhere else, though i'd expect that the place is modernised now. modern inconveniences.
"There's another, -- not a sister: in the happy days gone by
You'd have known her by the merriment that sparkled in her eye;
Too innocent for coquetry, -- too fond for idle scorning, --
O friend! I fear the lightest heart makes sometimes heaviest mourning!
Tell her the last night of my life (for, ere the moon be risen,
My body will be out of pain, my soul be out of prison), --
I dreamed I stood with her, and saw the yellow sunlight shine
On the vine-clad hills of Bingen, -- fair Bingen on the Rhine.
it's a verse from Bingen on the Rhine by Caroline Norton. and Gilbert looked right at anne when he recited the "there's another, not a sister' part. i love poetry. gosh. i keep discovering the weirdest things about my personality. and you end up having to rediscover and understand yourself again.
now, i can safely say, my ideals and interest lie in Arts: Literature, Drama and History. but the realistic and practical me leans towards Science. why do people have to be practical? it's funner to be dreamy.
I’m a 9-pointer. ain’t too bad. I got A2 for E math. So it’s gonna be.
My dad took me out to dinner at a jap restaurant for buffet. It’s good except I think I may get indigestion.
today mr wong informed us about this essay competition at the US embassy about how we could win this scholarship to university of philidelphia. the competition was today, and i was real tempted to go. if you win, you get to miss A levels and just go straight to U. but i didn't. figured the chances of me winning are like close to nil. and since i didn't go, then it's nada.
the best part is, i told my dad and mom about it just now and they were like,'why didn't you go?' and my dad was like,'it's a great school(i really am a toad in a well) they have the watten business school(i haven't the faintest idea how it's spelt) and if you go there, you'll definitely get a job. and can do MBA...' wow. never mind, i'll have chances along the way.
i'm rereading the Anne series now and really, i love the books. i have just decided that Gilbert is a nice name. it's an acquired taste. i didn't used to really like it before and now i think it's great. have made up my mind that i'll get the 89 bucks dvd about the book. hopefully the gilbert inside won't disappoint me. next to ashley, i shall name my son gilbert.
besides this, i'm heartily convinced that i should have been born in another period. war time. or 19th century, or in some chinese dynasty, song/qing/ming/yuan. really. i live for nature and raw beauty. might have been better if i were stuck in the middle ages. the quotes in Anne are beautiful.
kae, gotta shoo. survivor is waiting.
Thursday, October 09, 2003
we got back pretty much everything. except E math. mrs seah hasn't finished marking them. but i'm unhappy with today's results.
i got C5 for A maths and higher chinese. the chinese was way gross. like only 25 people got A1 in the level. and the teachers failed my compo coz the title is supposed to be interpreted only as an expository essay and i did narrative. so failed content.
around me, everyone was like aiming for A1 for math. and i was happy with just a pass. was hoping for a B, but nah. hopeless. looks to me that E maths will be either a B. or an A2. nothing else i guess. i'm still bordering between 9 and 10 points. it's certain that i don't have to count math.
i know that i really should start studying. coz everyone has finished breaking, and i'm still slacking away. my mom's really right. she said if i were to take a one week break, i'd spend another week trying to get back on track. the point is, i can't be bothered to study as usual. the worst thing is, i'm reverting back to my old sleeping habits. napping 3 hours in the afternoon. at one stage when i studied with minmin, i would stay awake and revise in the afternoon. now, i've gone back to sleeping or reading. urgh.
i know i should be content with my L1R5. but they are all borderline As. nothing solid except English. and i feel so bu zhi de for my combined humanities. the B4 is really pulling everything down. but honestly, if you look at the remaining subjects, it's 2 C5s.
God please help me. i need to study.
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
now, now. congrats jy! you rawk. that's whopper great grades for lit!
i got back bio and combined humanities yesterday. the humanities is so bad, considering i have just one humanities which i have to count coz i dropped c.lit. it's B4. it nearly dashed all hopes of getting a single digit for L1R5.
begged mrs tan for marks for my bio paper. but in the end she marked a couple of MCQ questions wrong, so i'm adding marks and it's A1.
got back physics and chem papers today. i expected a shoo-in for chem. but it's an A2. 74.3% so i asked mrs tan if she could review my paper and give me half a mark somewhere. sad.
physics was way unexpected. doing the papers, i knew it was to be anything but A1. it was the worst science paper. but they were VERY lenient and my whole class got distinction. i got A1. like for real..
so everything tallying for now, it's 4 A1s, 1 A2 and a B4. if chem gets pulled up(mrs tan penalised me for writing extra), then it'll be 5 A1s and a B4. the sad thing is, coz of the horrid B4, the best is 9 points. *sob* but it's still a lot better than i thought.
and of course, been slacking all this while.
Monday, October 06, 2003
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.
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sec 2s: honestly, i don't realy know. i always did come you see, so perhaps i don't understand why others don't. if she really doesn't want to stay, tell her to speak to OC and do something about it. she's not gonna be getting anywhere like this. your squad strength is gonna be dropping. jia you for exams! go for your combi!
today we got back some prelim results. in my case, just English. i really could have kissed sushilla. really. that's the highest mark i've ever scored for a compo my whole sec school life. 33. nothing stunning but i usally get 28, 29.
i was on honour roll for Paper 1 overall. it's really a high to appear on the list. pure elation. and came in 5th in the level for English with 83%. i know i sound thick-skinned or something. but really, praise God. must keep going.
they went through some of the hilarious answers people gave and it really cracked us up. just funny the way people answered the questions.
afterwards, the lit paper didn't apply to me. and the confirmed our cca grade. it's still B3. but i shan't care. watched Now and Then last night and 'O' this afternoon. Now and Then is a fab movie. it's so funny. and 'O' is well, profound. josh hartnett doesn't look too bad in there, but i think they made him dye his hair, he's better a blonde.
getting back bio and combined humanities papers tomorrow. i really pray i'll do well. i have to. it's crucial. if i go and get a B for math, fine. but not for my sciences. i'm counting on them.
