Saturday, August 23, 2003
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it's just half right. but what did i expect anyway?
i finished reading diary of a teenage girl today. once i started proper, i got hooked. no it isn't anne frank. it's about this girl, caitlin O'Conner, 17, who deals with dating, love, God, school, trauma, sex..etc quite good. but since it's to do with religion, the ending is more saintly than my liking. but i intend to get the 3 sequels to the book. thanks eileen for buying me the book!
studied 60% of the cheng yu today. and watched one episode of autumn in my heart. i watched 4 episodes yesterday and used 11 sheets of tissue paper. that's quite a record. and another 3 today. will watch the legend of the condor heroes on SCV later and maybe even the weepy tearjerker too!
was listening to this korean cd while i studied. real nice. shall copy the cd.
yesterday, we had geog mock. was having cramps/stomachache and so wanted to go home, but just took panadol extra and sat for the freaking paper(which sucked, by the way) and the pain just wham came right in the middle of the papar and went off and i continued. i ain't wilting. but i'm gonna bail soon.
tomorrow is the last day of catechism class. if they ended it like before confirmation, i would've been wistful and sad. but now..it's like since post-confirmation, less and less people have started turning up for class. coz it don't hurt there chance at getting confirmed anymore. there's this class which has like 3 people coming. and frankly, i stop enjoying coming to cat class. it's getting to be quite obliging again. because they keep asking for commitments. to youth groups and such, and now, as the spirit of being Christ-like begins to wane, i'm just drifting, and i know many others are too. i'm not even sure if i want to go into Footprints or not.
all i wanna do, is to do well. get to college. ace the O's. and if that's already so difficult for me to achieve now, what more do i want?
Thursday, August 21, 2003
today was 'speak good cantonese' day. was learning the language from eileen and min. quite funny. we even did debating in cantonese, and i felt rather accomplihsed coz i'm a new language. but of course, it ain't tested in tomorrow's geog mock. not even under some development of nations or something.
still on lord of the rings. the two towers now, don't know whether i have mentioned that before. me is going to play very hard when the O's are over. VERY hard. one whole month of intensive playing. till i collapse from fatigue of playing too much.
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
today's oral sucked. bad.
i am an english person. and it sucked.
the only other thing that will suck more is my english grade.
cheers.
Sunday, August 17, 2003
decided to update today. prolly coz i may not update for the rest of the week. there's only so little spare time. actually, it's not spare time, coz i doubt i can spare any time in the first place. but i've got to break somehow. and if i have to choose between, getting adequate sleep, watching programmes, reading, going window shopping and surfing the net..i gotta admit that sleep comes first, then shws, then reading/shopping and lastly surfing the net.
oh. and last round i forgot to mention that i hate to study. just 2 weeks of so-called intensive studying(not that intensive, but enough for me) and i'm ready to snap. i loathe studying. despise it. absolutely. totally. positively.
was at church today. and father john-paul was giving a homily on what's our purpose in life. and that just kept me thinking through the entire homily, what is the purpose in my life? for a while, i was stumped. just didn't know what to say. then gradually, i managed to conclude that i wanted security. all the while, working towards a goal and hoping to reach it. somehow. i want high-paid jobs coz well, the high pay. but what do i really enjoy? i lve reading and creating stories in my brain. and truthfully? i love acting. i love the film industry: recreating everything from scratch and painting life-like pictures. reenacting parts in lives which would have been otherwise impossible. i want to act coz i want to taste lives of so many people. and sadly, i'm never content, in a way. oh and then we had cat. class. just talk and talk and talk. i'm real capable of that.
sigh. i know i'm just being paranoid. but i can't help it. i'm just scared i won't last 3 months. that i won't make it to the end of the O's. i know i should be looking forward and picturing all the good things to happen after the O's. but yet it seems ever so distant. and i'm real freaked that i won't live to see it or something. or even if i did live to see it, i won't be happy, like coz i just fouled my prelims or some gut feeling that i did awful for my O's or something. oh gosh..the possibilities are quite unappetising. oh no..oh no oh no..
