Friday, July 11, 2003
i failed maths. again.
it ain't just A maths now. it's E maths. transformations. i..i am just speechless. what can i say? clearly i've got a pea-sized brain which cannot do f***ing maths for nuts. it's one thing i cannot conquer. besides my fear.
having a numbing headache now. been having it on and off the whole day. was feeling terribly warm, i think it's the grey sports bra which covers like practically my whole back and deprives it of losing heat to the surroundings perhaps. urgh.
had rifle drills session today. after a while, got so tired the brain just shut down. the rifle gets heavier with time. and by the end of some one hour or so, it just gets a little hard to handle. stranded in school due to the storm. lunn's mom was so nice to let me hitch a ride. thank ye!
going out with cher after NP tomorrow. shall buy several things, that will keep me conetnted for a while at least. will go out, unless i get sick again or too washed out or something.
i'm shooing off. shall bathe, then eat, then watch a little tv. then sleep. i'm zonked.
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
hmm. i haven't been online since sunday. that's like 3 days back? just been having tests and getting back a couple of test papers. the routine boring stuff. i was thinking that i really disliked this week's test schedule: one per day from tuesday to friday. then i realised that next week's is way worse: 3 on tues and one tentatively on wed, but if it clashes with the T&F finals, then it'll be 4 on tues.
i have a bio test tomorrow and i haven't started. but it shouldn't be a problem anyway. i should stop talking in academic-language. sickening to the ears.
was thinking of going out. maybe tomorrow. need to get certain items: vcds, POP skirt & top, clothes(in general), books(i really shouldn't. it's taking up a lot of time to read the books) and whatever else i feel like.
these past few days have been this pendulum of extremes, my moods swings like some over-oiled see-saw. i must say that family means a lot to me. it's more than just dad, mom and sis. it's about love, warmth and joy too. the nights are hard to bear, when it's late and you are studying and there's just no one you can call 'coz it's too late into the night. everyone's asleep. and you are all alone. so very alone. it's really downtime.
it's really bad when my supposed throat infection is gone, only to realise, a day after my medication ended, the whole deal just came back, ain't as pain, but ain't fun. and then you just think: where's mommy? i guess i'm still a baby afterall.
Sunday, July 06, 2003
went to my aunt's place for tuition and caught up with my cousin. he's 22 and is on scholarship to warwick university in england. back for the hols now and he's supposed to give me tuition in physics but is basically avoiding it. and he just converted his license to a singapore one.
so anyway he was driving and he 'banged' the rear of the car while trying to reverse-park. he can't gauge the distance really well, so he'll just drive all the way up and after hitting something then he'll realise it and shift the car a little. and he drove at 7+ to take me home and drove almost up to the doorstep before figuring that he didn't turn on the headlights. sheesh.
anyways, he was commenting how funny it is that singapore's news actually included like how flight departures for china have actually increased. mentioning how weird it is coz even that has to be reported on clearly showed that there's nothing worthy to report on in singapore. i defended it by saying that that was important coz it's post-SARS. but frankly, there really isn't much happening here.
just like there isn't much in my life too. i'm actually writing about my cousin's driving skills. read the previous entry anyway. there's more depth there.
