Tuesday, June 17, 2003
fabrics of white,
sons and daughters.
candles of light,
brothers and sisters.
empty hearts, hollow beings.
sealed by fire, by the spirit of God.
wholesome fruit, brimming with life,
jined with thy Father.
this june and the couple of days before june itself has been one of the most memorable times in my life. and definitely the highlight of the year. i don't even know how to begin to describe it all. excluding today and most of yesterday, the 3 days before was a whilr of activity, longing, waiting..
i'll start with the rehearsal for confirmation on fri night. it was just okay. laughed and talked with my catechism classmates. then saturday, was a talk, confession and outpouring. i confessed this sin which i've been avoiding for some years now. so i felt better. then i had the outpouring. like everyone had it before except me coz i didn't go for the camp having to go for a cca camp. but it was fabulous.
first was crying, then i got prayed over and i cryed somemore, then i was slain(meaning fell to the ground). but even though i knew i was falling, i didn't feel the pain when you fall hard on the ground. it was all soft and light kind of feeling. then i woke up like instantaneously. my teeth were chattering and i was shuddering all over but i was warm and there was this pressure on my hip. i continued to cry. it's like i've been believing and sort of unbelieving this while. didn't really feel anything ever. or i'll be attributing something which happened to my religion but never completely convinced. and just when i was totally persuaded into thinking that it'll forever be that way, i was slain. and i comepletely believe now. we were singing after that and we were all freaking happy. it's sad that i had to see before i believed with great faith. but i believe now.
confimation was a blast! loved every minute of it. though i was a nervous wreck before. we did this affirmative thing before confirmation. like say good stuff about the some people in the class and pray for them. nearly cried when sheryl talked to me. because i know and understand every word which she said and it's so touching to know that someone is saying something so sweet. it's like some people say things which just open the windows of your heart and touch you straight to the core. so i ended up hugging and praising most of the girls and guys in the class. they loved me for talking. like in class or cca, i'm whacked for being talkative and to me it's always been a flaw. but they liked me for talking. it was like life in and empty shell. it's great to be appreciated.
and also, they wanted poeple who had experiences with the holy spirit to stand up and give testimonies which everyone felt but no one dared to. so they asked people to raise hands if they felt and raise both hands if they were touched. and asked them to stand up to prove that they truly believed. i did. and so did 3 others. so i had to give testimony. and was nervous like shit. but i did and now i'm glad i did. and i was wearing this white dress(we are all supposed to wear white). and some people commented that they liked the dress. me too. jiayan and glenda said my hair was real straight. coz i combed it?
i felt really enlightened and clam and happy. like a slow melodious sweet clam spreading over the whole body, like alcohol coursing through my blood.and took many pictures. jy, mich, lili, kenny turned up specially for my confirmation. lynn, glenda, suyee, natasha was there. and so was june who didn't get confirmed. saw him later. promised him that i'll turn up for his. val didn't come. was disappointed at first, but my mom told me not to be bitter over it. oh well.
snap! snap! smile! picture time! i took as many as possible. else i regret. it was like having a second birthday but so much better. and having the people whom i cared for come down for me. kenny totally rocked. he had to book in into camp but stayed back for the confirmation. thanx! received some stuff. some notes from the girls in my class. sookee white gold cross and tulips from mom & dad, precious thought figurine and pluto softtoy from my godma, tee from lynn and mich(bday pressie), book on inspirational thoughts from kenny, this photoframe thingy from the church's sec 3s, dark roses from jy. then there's the totally cute candle. love all you guys.
love you pris, love all the peeps in my cat class. will totally miss you guys when cat class ends. love you guys who came for me. and love ya mom and dad. and love ya sis though you couldn't come.
i love being a catholic.
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