Friday, April 11, 2003
I have mood swings all the time. well, not actually. it's just that I'm usually down in the dumps, so technically I have mood swings. I'm seldom very happy. that usually happens only when I go overseas or when I'm having a really carefree holiday. something which is not happening now. so now, I'm feeling-less. I wish there was some pleasant excitement.
I can't believe myself. i read a five-find-outers book by enid blyton today. I do that every time i run out of something good to read. then I'll go read some kid's book. there is a lot of work waiting for me, that I do know. but I don't wanna start, so I picked up some book to read. sheesh.
I've got lots of work to go, and I haven't really done much. aye.
Thursday, April 10, 2003
aye. I just did this personality disorder test. good grief. I never knew that i had such a 'disordered' personality. it's like way worse than cheryl's. I'm not saying that her personality is weird. it's just that hers had like 2 problems and mine was completely crazy.
paranoid-low
schizoid-low
avoidant-low
narcissistic-moderate
boderline-moderate
schizotypal-high
antisocial-high
dependant-high
obsessive-compulsive-high
histrionic-very high
very terrible personality indeed. but what it said was really true. and I learned that antisocial doesn't mean that the person has poor social skills. it's the exact opposite justa that the person has a problem somewhere. I forgot what.
I read michelle's entry about fate. she said that a guy and a girl are destined to meet. and all guys and girls will fall for each other at some point of time. hmm. I disagreed. I can't see a person falling for like every person on earth. highly unlikely. though possible.
but my belief in fate is that God made humans in pairs. and scattered them. and each being is matched to a person of the opposite sex. and that person is the perfect one. the perfect fit. sometimes they may be as close by as the person next door or sometimes they are as far as the ends of the earth. and sometimes one may never find that special someone or they may and separate fue to some circumstances or misunderstandings. but that one person was made just for you. like 2 halves of the same apple. and that special someone is there. somewhere.
Monday, April 07, 2003
I said that I will do work today. and I haven't. but I'm gonna do so after this. going to read bio. i read Can You Keep A Secret? by Sophie Kinsella today. I don't care what jy says, but Jack harper is defintely better than Luke Brandon. 'coz Jack is real. and the whole book is so funny. I just kept giggling as I read the book. my maid must think I'm nutty. I seldom do that these days, only when I was still primary school did I use to laugh in the middle of reading. but it's funny alright.
and I napped twice today. 4 hours in total. good grief. and while I was napping in the afternoon, I had a really weird dream. weird and gross too. and I may be coming down with the flu bug. not SARS!!
Sunday, April 06, 2003
fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars.
listened to a song on the PERHAPS PERHAPS PERHAPS cd today. I forgot the song title, but that line is so beautiful. I pretty much like the song, though it is a little tuneless. but the lines and so nice.
I don't need to fly to the moon or anything, I just want to go someplace nice and romantic. one can see stars anywhere. it doesn't have to be the moon.
my dad asked me where I want to go for holiday after the O'levels. he wanted to go in november. but I told him about graduation night and he was like, "don't go larh" I knew he was joking though. I was thinking how about going to spain or something. someplace different. he suggested tasmania. I just want to enjoy myself I guess..
